Its a funny story really...

A couple of weeks ago Old Navy was having a fabulous sale! All clearance was %50 off PLUS I had a coupon for an extra %30 off.

So I headed out in search of almost FREE (well sort off if you do the math, the items were already marked down %50 plus MY EXTRA %80 off) items.

I am usually not a HUGE fan of Old Navy but for the clearance and quality there is just no where else to get deals like that.

So I made a "few" purchases and paid $23 for 3 pairs of pants, 6 sweaters and 7 shirts. WOW what a steal! The pants were all $3.20 FOR CARGO PANTS! And they are so comfy!

I immediately wash the black ones to wear and I LOVE them. I also love that I got them in 3 colors.

Well yesterday I was feeling under the weather. I slept late, was dragging and I swear I am fighting something that wants to make me sick (I also think it may be stress)

Anyways I head out to the post office which is a block from the house and throw on a pair of my new comfy pants.

I run a few errands and come home to cook dinner.

After dinner I use the rest room and I notice I HAVE HUGE BRUISES ALL OVER MY LEGS!! I run out of the bathroom with my pants around my ankles to show the hubby.

We are both SUPER concerned, he is telling me I need to go to the hospital and I am FREAKING out because WHAT IS THIS!! We thought all the bruising was from the massage the hubby gave me the night before....

Then I start to laugh....

Yeah the pants I "threw on" had not been washed.. And the grey dye transferred onto my skin! It was SO GROSS/Scary I will never do that again (wear something before its washed) I am usually VERY weird about stuff like that because of all the stuff I read like this and this.

And I would have taken a pictures but it was UGLY.. But the good news is I do not have to go to the hospital! lol

So much to be thankful for

1. I am thankful for all my family and friends. I have been truly overwhelmed in the last couple of weeks with the out pouring of love and support.

2. I am thankful for the beautiful 13 years I have had with the most amazing husband.

3. I am thankful for our health, all things considered we are really lucky.

4. I am thankful for all the doctors, nurses, oncologist, radiologist and hospital staff that have been so amazing the last week.

5. I am thankful for how quick this whole process has been. I have heard horror stories of people having to wait months for tests and results. We are very blessed.

6. I am thankful for our dog Daisy, its been almost 4 years and she makes me laugh every day. She also knows how to take care of me when I am worried and upset.

7. I am just thankful for everything. I am thankful that my heart is at peace with what it about to happen. I am thankful for the strength to get through each day.

We are blessed.

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!

What are you Thankful for this year?

Do you see what I have to deal with?

(being silly and I can not see it till I look at the picture)

Its ok to laugh. There is really nothing else we can do. The hubby is getting a little upset with me taking a bunch of pictures for the other blog so now he is just being silly...

Surgery went well you can read about it here.

Thank you all for the well wishes and prayers we are feeling them all!

Death of the FABULOUS frame

So my first DIY project has died a deadly death.

She was so pretty and she was my first.. You always remember your first..


She survived the move fine but when I went to hang her I "bumped" her.. Yeah she crumbled. Hubby offered to help me glue it back together.. Nope she went into the trash....

This picture makes me giggle

Goodness I LOVE this dog!

A little do it yourself project

I was having a little issue with my "jewelry" I LOVE to accessorize but I always find it too hard to find what I am looking for.. or even to remember what I have I keep it in shoe boxes and little pull Rubbermaid totes tucked in my closet

And we keep our bedroom door open so Daisy can get in and out of the bedroom whenever she needs to
So we have this HUGE bare wall behind our door begging for something so I went out to target and got me some of these (I used a coupon of coarse!)


Started putting them together


And covered the wall in them...



VOILA! I am quite impressed if I do say so myself. And now I know where everything is.. I need to figure out something for my earrings. For now they are in the little totes.



And now I also need more little hooks because I had WAY more than I thought.. But I like the way it turned out!

The Blog is up * Edited

So I started a blog for the hubby and I to share our journey.



I also want to ask for help does anyone know how to make a button? I would like to have one to link to his blog or from people to have if they want it.

Try this again

Craigs Fight

or

http://craigsfight.blogspot.com/

Staying Positive

We are both staying positive and we are in good spirits. You never expect any of this to happen to YOUR family?

He has had his PET scan yesterday, which is where they inject you with the stuff that makes the tumors glow, and we have met with the oncologist and the radiologist oncologist and they are all BAFFLED how he is not sick. He is not showing ANY symptoms of the cancer.

We know for sure he has the tumor in his neck, he has a mass in his chest and he has a swollen spleen.

I forced the doctor to "guess" what stage he though it was at and he said if he had to go with what information he has that "not on record" it would be a stage 3 or 4.

Its all really scary. But it is out of our hands.

We meet with the surgeon today.

The love and support that has outpouring is amazing. We can feel it.

At least I can speak for myself when I say that my heart is at peace with what is about to happen. I know that sounds so weird. And I do not understand it myself. I have had no more than at least 5 people panicking about "are you ok" and to be honest

I am ok.

Its out of our control. Everyone keeps telling me that they can not believe how strong I am being. And they are worried I will fall apart.

I do not feel it. I have let go of the control and I am peace with what is about to happen. I have NO control over what will happen. Its going to happen even if I get angry, and scream, and cry. Its not going to change anything...

Thank you all for your love and support. We are working on a blog that I will share with you all as soon as its up and running. It will have all the information as we get it to share with family and friends and anyone else who may happen upon it. I have started taking pictures to document this journey so that maybe one day it will help someone else going through this.

This is my new mantra:

Hope is not about everything turning out ok. It's about being ok no matter how things turn out

How your life can change in an instant

So about a week ago the hubby showed me a bump on his neck. I being the doting wife told him to have a Dr look at it. (he works in a hospital)

Nurse says its a pulled muscle and to put ice on it.

So he does and no change.

So yesterday we go to a hospital to have it looked at because he was going out of town for the week (getting him in a hospital is like pulling teeth) after the 3 hour wait we leave.

We had set the alarms early to get up and go to a different hospital "just in case" because I did not want to wait till he got back to have it checked.

I chalked it up to "its nothing" but he swore it was something worse.

We woke up this morning at 6am and he says "Lets just not go, we can go when we get back"

Me very sleepy say "Ok if you think so"

He goes pee and that little nagging feeling hits me in the gut. I REALLY wanted to stay in the nice warm bed because it was all warm and comfy but I let my gut lead me

"Babe we are already up, lets just go and humor me that its nothing before you are gone for a week, last time I listened to my gut you went in for emergency surgery within hours of me getting you to the hospital"

Off to the hospital we go.

10 minutes in we are checked by a nurse who stated "Oh no worries that's not even where your lymph nodes are"

The Dr comes in says hi and introduces us to her assistant.

She them feels the lump on his neck and you can audibly hear her gasp at the size of it.

The Dr does not say much but tells us he needs a CT scan.

We wait 2 hours after he had to drink this HUGE container of chalky stuff to help the CT scan.

And then after about 30 hour the peppy little Dr pokes her head back in the room

"You have Lymphoma Cancer"

Not the man I love. Not the strongest man I know. Not the man who NEVER gets sick. Not the guy who always teases me about being sick.


Its not even real.

Cancer?

Its still really early and we do not know anything yet we know its Lymphoma we know they "suspect" its hodgkin's lymphoma.

We go for a PET scan on Wednesday and meet with the oncologist tomorrow....

If you pray, if you send good vibes if you want to just keep us in your thoughts....I will take anything you got!!

But the good news is we are both in good spirits. If you can say that. We both know and understand that it is out of our control.

For your viewing pleasure (after all the family had been notified) this is my husbands facebook status :

Randoms Husband has found out that he has Lymphoma....possibly Hodgkins. I will know more by the end of the week after the PET scan. Biopsy next week. Looking forward to the weight loss and cool medication. 33 is looking like the new 70.

One of the many reasons he is my hero...

Thats it your fired!!

The laundry fairy is SERIOUSLY lacking on her duties?

I mean this is 10 loads of laundry just lying on the counter! I mean the nerve of some people.

Its been there for 2 days!!! You figure she would get the picture??

(this has since been put away...sheesssh no help from the fairy either!)

What not to wear Wednesdays

Showing your underwear is making a comeback?

Look closely.. Her thong is hanging out of her pants...

Being a good friend?

Does not mean you should borrow her tights?
Its not ok?

To be 55 and dress like you are 20 with a midriff showing?


What are your thoughts?

What self sabotage looks like...

So umm yeah... I have been trying SO HARD but in my defense it was ALL FREE!! And on clearance.. my 2 favorite words ever...


And if you have seen these in the stores and wondered "humm I wonder if these are good?" Well I bought these for the hubby. He loves anything pumpkin... Well they are DELICIOUS!! Supper yummy.. And I ate ALL OF THEM!!! And I do not even feel bad.. they were amazing!! And they were free so I "had to try them"..


An favorite treats that you go to?

Open Letters

Dear downstairs neighbor,

I know I have smiled and said hello to you a few times and ogled after your very cute newborn. I will have no more smiles for you.
I heard you the other day SCREAMING at the baby "STOP CRYING!! ALL YOU EVER DO IS CRY!!" at the top of your lungs.
But who am I to judge I am not a mother. But to scream at a baby???

Sincerly
Dirty looks for you



Dear stinky guy who trained me today,

Take a shower! There is something to be said about a restaurant that would allow such a stinking (and I am not even exaggerating) serving tables.
Also I almost barfed when you REACHED YOUR BARE HAND INTO THE OLIVES!!
Eww your gross. And I can still smell you in my nostrils!

Sincerly
I hope I never have to work "near" you again

Dear Ladies (in general)

I understand the need to "hoover" I get it, I do! But let's be honest IF YOU PISS ALL OVER THE SEAT CLEAN IT UP!!
I understand its an art we all try to master but no one is perfect...

Oh and while I am at it... Flush the damn toilet.

Sincerly
Sick of cleaning up other peoples piss to hover over the toilet

Thats all for today...

30 pounds in 3 months!

I need to lose 30 pounds by January.

Why?

Well its time. Its really time this time! Not to mention I will going to Vegas with some very special people in my life and I want to be in good form.

I am doing it for myself and my health.

So yesterday I did 5 miles combined with walks with Daisy and the hubby and I went to the BEAUTIFUL gym in our building for a couple as well.

I LOVE our gym. Its state of the art AND NO ONE USES IT!! We are 2 blocks from a 24 hour fitness that is PACKED all the time but I can walk into our gym any time and be the only one in there.


This is a good thing. No excuses. No "Oh there are no treadmills I should go home" or equally as good "I really do not want to set a fire while my thighs rub together and but cheeks cause a minor earthquake"

But I need to STAY motivated!!

What works for you??

What not to wear Wednesday

So does anyone see whats wrong with this picture??
I mean I am no FASIONISTA but even I know you do not wear WHITE SHOES AFTER LABOR DAY!!.... But I am guessing there must have been a GREAT sale on these white boots because we have not one but THREE offenders!
And I wish I could tell you these ladies were young and hip (because if they were then WHITE boots are totally acceptable)? But no they were all over 50 struting their stuff downtown San Francisco...
But to not be out done they brought their 60 year old friend in leopard pants! I mean she has a fabulous ass and is rocking them but its 11am. I mean where do you wear pants like that at 11am? Oh not to mention the orange lipstick because... well I had to look!

This makes me SO ANGRY AND SICK!!

Woman admits faking cancer, keeping cash

2 hours, 39 minutes ago

By Ciara Byrne, The Canadian Press Original link HERE

MILTON, Ont. - An Ontario woman has pleaded guilty to faking terminal cancer and keeping thousands of dollars in donations.

Ashley Kirilow of Burlington was charged with six counts of fraud under $5,000 and one count of fraud over $5,000.

In a soft voice Kirilow, 23, pleaded guilty today to defrauding Donna Michalowski of close to $7,400 collected at a fundraiser — the other six charges will be addressed next year.

Outside court Kirilow's lawyer, Brendan Neil, said his client is sorry for what she's done and wants to move on with her life.

Sentencing was put over until Jan. 27, when a pre-sentence is expected to be submitted to the court.

Fraud over $5,000 carries a maximum sentence of 14 years in prison.

"It's a sign of taking responsibility," Neil said outside court when asked about the guilty plea.

The Crown said Kirilow's motive was attracting "attention," but Neil said his client didn't anticipate the crush of media that the case has drawn.

"I don't think this was what she had in mind," he said gesturing to journalists outside court.

Kirilow rushed from the courthouse, covering her face, to a waiting taxi and did not speak to the media.

Court heard the young woman pretended to have cancer to raise money that she promised to give to charity, but kept the nearly $7,400 raised at a Burlington bar in February for herself.

Kirilow turned herself in to police on Aug. 6.

Her father has said she told him she shaved her head and eyebrows, and plucked her eyelashes to appear to have cancer.

When allegations surfaced against Kirilow, public outrage was swift.

Angry comments were splashed across the Facebook page set up for Kirilow's fake charity, Change for the Cure, with some even saying they hoped she got cancer.

Photos on the website showed Kirilow smiling, but looking sallow as she wore a pink knit hat to cover her apparently bald head.

In the picture, she also made fists to show off tattoos on her knuckles that read in black lettering "Won't quit." Other photos had shown a pair of hands wrapped in tubes and taped with needles.

I found this facebook page as well..

http://www.facebook.com/#!/group.php?gid=137241062978558&v=wall

This just makes me SO SICK!! I have no words!

What a $15 dollar hair cut looks like

So I am striking out with the "beauty salon situation" out here..

Serves me right for attempting to do something on a budget.

So the eyebrow fiasco is growing back so I can start to fix them.

But then I was in DIRE need of a haircut. Nothing fancy just a trim. Easy enough huh?



I HAVE STRAIGHT HAIR HOW THE HELL DO YOU MESS THAT UP? I mean its SUPER straight no curl, no wave, no layers, no bangs just one length straight...



Umm yeah no having so much luck here, but I always like to look on the bright side... It was nothing I could not fix myself....

Even the hubby was laughing at me. It looks "FINE" if I do not move my head at all... But I cut this piece off and now its perfect..

Just my luck...