What self sabotage looks like...

So umm yeah... I have been trying SO HARD but in my defense it was ALL FREE!! And on clearance.. my 2 favorite words ever...


And if you have seen these in the stores and wondered "humm I wonder if these are good?" Well I bought these for the hubby. He loves anything pumpkin... Well they are DELICIOUS!! Supper yummy.. And I ate ALL OF THEM!!! And I do not even feel bad.. they were amazing!! And they were free so I "had to try them"..


An favorite treats that you go to?

30 pounds in 3 months!

I need to lose 30 pounds by January.

Why?

Well its time. Its really time this time! Not to mention I will going to Vegas with some very special people in my life and I want to be in good form.

I am doing it for myself and my health.

So yesterday I did 5 miles combined with walks with Daisy and the hubby and I went to the BEAUTIFUL gym in our building for a couple as well.

I LOVE our gym. Its state of the art AND NO ONE USES IT!! We are 2 blocks from a 24 hour fitness that is PACKED all the time but I can walk into our gym any time and be the only one in there.


This is a good thing. No excuses. No "Oh there are no treadmills I should go home" or equally as good "I really do not want to set a fire while my thighs rub together and but cheeks cause a minor earthquake"

But I need to STAY motivated!!

What works for you??

7 pounds baby!! And a rant

Yeah I lost it!

I wish it was more but its a start. 1 month 7 pounds at this rate I will be 90 before I am at my goal weight...lol

On a side note, I am so disappointed in friends right now.

I had something planned. Something big, and I asked for the support of people I "thought" were friends.

Friend 1 (who I asked 3 weeks ago to attend) I can't I have to work.

Me- Well its 3 weeks away, on a Wednesday evening I am SURE you can get it covered.

Friend 1 - I can't I work.

So umm yeah.

Friend 2 YES I am coming I would be happy to be there.

Me YAY!

Friend 2 (texts me this morning after avoiding 4 messages about the event) I just got a HUGE tax bill for my car I can't come.

Me -Serious? What does a tax bill for your car have to do with supporting me this evening, if you did not want to go that is all that you had to say. We are all adults here and I totally understand but there is no reason to avoid me....

Friend 2- No response.

Frustrated yes I am. But I will get over it. The thing that hurts is if either of these "friends" asked me to be there for them I would be in a heart beat. For instance, this past weekend it was friend #1 birthday bash. I attended BOTH evenings events and so did the husband. Which was HUGE for him. And she can not even attend one thing for me for an hour?

Does this happen to anyone else? Or just me?

I hate to be negative Nancy but in my experience it seems the more I put myself out there the more I care about people and let them in, the more I am disappointed?

Letting myself down

OK so a little pity party for myself.

I vowed on April 1st to start a 28 day detox. Which is basically eating right and exercising more.

Guess how good I am doing?

Oh yeah. Well the good news is I am not gaining any weight and the bad news is I am not losing any.

I know tomorrow is a new day to start fresh, but when you wake up in the morning and all you want to do is eat cookies, and candy this is going to be harder than I thought!

Any suggestions? Its already the 6th and NOTHING is happening to my body! Well I guess I should just scare y'all with some gross pictures of me in a bikinni.. I am sure that will do it for me!

7 pounds baby!!!

Oh yeah. In 5 days. Really I am SO EXCITED!!!

Operation clean the closet!!

So its safe to say the closet has gotten away from me...


So I am a bit of a pack rat. When it comes to clothes and shoes... Well I finally decided to dig myself out of the closet! I contacted our local Hope House a womens shelter that helps battered women & children to see if they needed donations of womens clothing. And it turns out they did not need them so my donations are off to The Salvation Army.


Voila!! The finished product!




All the access hangers!! And I am going to have to go back through again in 2 weeks when I am down 10 pounds and continuously each week while I am the shrinking women!. The diet is GUARANTEED (if you follow it properly of coarse) and I am already down 4 pounds!! In 2 days!!


Ohh and you must run out and buy one of these nifty things.. I got it a Bath Bed & Beyond. It 2 bands with little hooks on it that hold up to 16 purses so you can display them all nicely instead of hiding them in totes.


So now that I am losing weight I am hoping to have to purchase a whole new wardrobe by July!! I am so excited.. The husband not so much because now I will have an excuse to shop.... Everything will be hanging off of me.

Oh Bikram yoga how I love you!!

So way back in the day I used to do Bikram 5 days a week. The classes were literally across the street from my house so I really had no choice and it was easy to stick to.

In the previous city we lived in there were no studios within about 40 miles of where we lived, so I stopped going and have not been in about 4 years.

I found a studio about 15 miles from me.

And they are AMAZING!! So to help kick off my weight loss I am going to start back and commit to 3 days a week!!

And this is not just any yoga. There is no standing on your head or anything like that. The room you do the yoga in is heated to a very humid and WARM 105 degrees. It is the MOST AMAZING workout EVER!!. You can read more about Bikram here or find a studio near you!

Bikram's Beginning Yoga Class is a twenty-six asana series designed to scientifically warm and stretch muscles, ligaments and tendons, in the order in which they should be stretched.

Bikram Yoga's twenty-six posture exercises systematically move fresh, oxygenated blood to one hundred percent of your body, to each organ and fiber, restoring all systems to healthy working order, just as Nature intended. Proper weight, muscle tone, vibrant good health, and a sense of well-being will automatically follow.

Ummm yeah I think I am in love!!!

Gaining weight is not cool......

When you are supposed to be actively losing it!!

So I gained back one or two of the pounds I was supposed to be working on loosing. I blame the stress of the move and eating fast food for almost a week on it. Which is pretty good considering.

I lost 25 pounds last year with weight watchers and I have kept it off, but I can not seem to push past this hump.

Yes I need to start working out.

Yes I need to start watching what I eat. But when you work in a restaurant its REALLY hard to be picky about what you are eating. I mean I could eat salads every day but that is so boring when you have a plethora of yummy stuff to eat and all you have to do is imagine it.

***sigh***

I am taking suggestions to get moving again.... Anyone have anything that worked fabulous for them? Anything?

***side note. I gained 90 pounds when I broke my neck. I have lost 55 of that and have 40 to go to be at my weight before the accident....***

Updates

*School is not going to happen. I was schedualled to start yesterday and remember this? How I was worried about starting and then not being able to finish. I just got to thinking IT WAS A LOT of work and was not fair if I took advantage of the situation?

*Anyways. Work now knows I am leaving, I gave them my notice today so they can post my job. Because its a Gov position it takes FOREVER to hire someone.

*We have a tentative "idea" of where we may be moving. Its somewhere in Florida and I am SO excited!!

*My best friend is having a baby boy! And I am SO excited.

*My friend I went to Vegas with is moving September 19th and I am very sad about it. But we will always be friend so I am not so worried. And if we move to Florida then we will be closer to each other (she is moving to Dallas, TX)

*Project need to lose weight starts again September 1st. I have maintained for over 8 months so its time to step it up and start losing again.

But to sum it up. Life is good and I am blessed.