So time to clean out the closets.

But as I stood in front of the closet and opened the door to have shit spill out.
My cleaning closet phase has passed.... (not my closet but pretty damn close)

Mind you if I did clean the closets it would take 12 hours and then I would be forced to look at the magnitude of how big my ass has gotten while I sort out all my old "club clothes" which have been growing dust bunnies, actually probably dust monkeys at this point. AHH

I have a problem with clothes..

I am a clothes hoarder!

I feel better confessing that to all you random strangers.

And I will not confess the shoe problem because I think that goes without saying, Oh and do not get me started on the purses situation. (they have to match the shoes right?)

I think maybe that's why I want to get a job in a office..

SHOPPING!!

Tee hee

Uggg- Boring "technical" post

So I called Fair Employment and Housing Association today and filed a claim.

My interview is May 17th. WHAT! (and somehow I thought this would be resolved quickly, I should have known better)

The nice guy on the phone explained that it is a long process and this is how it works.
(he agreed that the reason I was declined the job is against the law "Due to Active Ongoing Medical Condition")

So he said May 17th I get my interview then the state files the complaint with the company, the company has 10 days to respond and needs to explain why after offering the position they changed their minds.Read more about it here

In general, California law prohibits discrimination against people with disabilities. An employer who discriminates against a person because of his/her disability may do so only if the employer can demonstrate that:

• The person is unable to perform the essential functions of the job; and that no reasonable accommodation exists that would enable the person to perform the essential functions of the job
• The person would create an imminent and substantial danger to himself/herself or a substantial danger to others by performing the job; and that no reasonable accommodation can be made to remove or reduce the danger.

The following two reasons are not legally acceptable excuses for discrimination:

• There is a possibility of future harm to the person or to others
• That employing individuals with a disability will cause an employer's insurance rates to rise
  

(This dot will not go away)

So I ask the guy if I am supposed to wait for the out come. He said no find other employment and then that way when everything comes out and the company gets fined by the state they are forced to settle with me for pain and suffering as well as they have to pay me what my salary would have been from the time I was offered the job till the time they are issued the citation and everything is settled. He says it usually comes out to 1 years salary and pain and suffering to a maximum of $150,000.00.
See I am not big about the whole "lets sue" thing and its not me who's taking them to court its the state that's charging them I am just the reason for it so it does not bother me at all.
I am capable of doing the job.
I am not a threat to anyone at the job. (well unless you REALLY piss me off)
So this is my right as a human with a disabilities living in California

What a process though, of well I am good at this "Hurry up and wait" thing... So here goes.

Why will blogger not let me post pictures?

3 days in a row!

I wish I was writing that about my sex life, but unfortunately I am not.(I wish!) Sex has been lax the last few weeks due to the amount of stress and frustration in our lives right now. I know its no excuse but there you have it. Its hard to be mad at the world and the situation you are in and then even THINK about sex. I have been crying almost every now about stupid stuff, shit that I have no control over at all.
I am impatient!
But I know it will not always be like this so I push forward.

I have another job interview on Friday. YEEPPEE, I figure if I keep going to interview someone eventually is going to have to give me a job.

I called the company that offered me the job and then said I could not have it because I was injured.
They sited "Due to an active ongoing medical condition" was the reason they can not hire me. There company doctor is supposed to call me tomorrow to have a conference call with me about the reasons why not. I am going to tape the phone conversation as per Bruno's request to make sure I have it all for "my case"

Why is she pushing so hard for this job?? Its all about the principal of it. And its illegal for them to site "medical condition" I am going to have this "condition" my whole life so the fact that its illegal and not fair is why I am pushing.

And my lawyer has yet again failed to call me back. I wish I could drop him but its too late, we are already headed to court, I mean I could but all the works already done and I would be hard pressed to find someone with a brain who is willing to "Split" the lawyers portion of the settlement.

But I digress....
3 days in a row I have been to the gym. So the worst of its over. I have been and conquered now I have to keep it up. Its a good place to work out my frustrations with life.

I think I need to get drunk.

Too bad we are so broke I can not even afford booze

Do not spoil what you have by desiring what you have not; but remember that what you now have was once among the things only hoped for.
Epicurus (341 BC - 270 BC)

WEEHOOO We are going to court

So it's official I got the letter in the mail yesterday.
I am going to court May 11 to settle with the HUGE company that has damanged me for the rest of my life.. This is GREAT news it's soon going to be over...

I had another job interview with a HUGE International Company and I WOULD LOVE THIS job, but this is the first time in my job searching history that I am not 100% certain that I got the job. Its a first for me. It feels weird.
Oh well I wait till Monday to find out. (how could they not hire me I am SO fabulous! lol)

Still have not heard from the company that I am FORCING to give me a job. I am going to call them tomorrow

I almost died last night!

Fucking crazy ass drunk driver.
Ok so I see this guy going REALLY fast approaching in my rear view, all of a sudden he turns on his headlights (about 7pm) and they flash like a police car (not color just white so it was obvious this was not a cop) the highway was only 2 lanes with concrete barriers on either side of the highway.
There is a guy beside me and there is about 6 cars in front of both him and me.
THE FUCKING GUY DROVE BETWEEN ME AND THE OTHER GUY RIGHT DOWN THE MIDDLE. THEN HE PROCEEDED LIKE THE NUTJOB HE IS TO BECOME A A PING PONG MACHINE TO BOUNCE OF ABOUT 10 CARS IN FRONT OF ME!!!!!
I SHIT YOU NOT.
I HAVE NEVER SEEN ANYTHING LIKE IT IN MY LIFE!
So me and the guy beside me slow down to about 20 miles an hour to stop traffic behind us because a a lot of cars had been hit.
They all proceed to pull over to the side of the road. No one was seriously injured more just in shock I guess.
Guess what happened to the drunk driver?

He drove away, without even slowing down.... (there were about 11 cars invloved in the mess.)

I HOPE AND PRAY SOMEONE GOT THE LICENSE.

But you know whats funny? You know how you always think about how you would react in a situation like that? I was so busy screaming and crying and praying my ass off out loud that this fucking idiot did not kill someone, and trying and hoping that the people behind me did not just rear end me cause I (and the guy beside me) were doing like 10 miles an hour to prevent anyone else getting caught up in the mess while everyone pulled over? All I remembered?

The guy was a NUTJOB (for obvious reasons) and It was a blue van.....

** on a completley different subject? WHAT THE HELL AM I DOING UP AT 6am?**

Today is one year since my accident

Goodness I can not believe its been that long.Read about It here
But all bad things must come to an end eventually and thank goodness this shit is almost done.
I contacted my "old" company a few days ago and found out for sure that I will not be going back (I already knew this but it was confirmed) The reason I called for confirmation is the State of California, thanks to the ASS HOLE governor Arnold Schwarzenegger changed all the workmans Comp Laws as of 2 months before my accident and now all the laws are in place to protect the company's.
Want proof?
I was sitting in the back room at work when all of a sudden 100 pounds of shelving fell on my damaging my spine for the rest of my life. I am permantley disabled from this shit.
The proof is that I have to live with my injury for my life, however if the HUGE company I worked for offers me my job back (with or without modifications) then they do not have to pay me one cent!!!
WHAT THE FUCK!
If they take me back they pay me nothing.
Oh and the fun thing is that they would only be required to keep me for 1 year then they could kick my ass to the curb and still not have to pay anything.

But lucky for me (if you can look at it like that) Its cheaper for them to just pay me off then to take me back to work, they also confirmed that they will be paying for me to go back to school to learn a new career and give me lifetime medical.

So here are my gratefuls : (Thanks Anne from Supposedly this is good therapy)

1) At least I can still walk. It could have been worse.

2) I worked for a HUGE company and they have taken good care of me since the accident.

3) I have other skills and experience to do a different job, a lot of people who are injured at work its all they know, I have tones of job experience doing lots of different things. ( I have always had 2 or 3 jobs at the same time)

4) The support of my husband during this really trying time. (try having sex with a guy who's 6'2 240 pounds with slipped discs in your spine)

5) We are not financially ruined yet. ( note the use of yet)

6) I got a year paid vacation.

7) Each day I deal with the pain it gets a little easier. (thank goodness for my high tolerance of pain)

8) I have a great group of friends and family (who I miss so much)

I could go on and on, so my glass is 1/2 full I guess.

So now I wait

I called the HR again to see if they were "able" to review my letter. I was advised it will take a few days and they will be in contact with me.

All this shit for a job.

Serious.

Oh well it could be worse I guess.
Not sure how much worse than it already is, both me and the hubby are freaking out right now. Money is going to be sooo tight for the next little while, unless I get a job soon and actually start working. I sent out 23 resumes yesterday nothing left to apply for today.

Thank goodness I like ramen noodles and Mac&Cheese.

Oh and I went to get my prescriptions filled today and the STUPID pharmacy came me drugs that I have to inject myself ( I have been doing this since I was 15 and its a long story for another day) and they never gave me the injector?? And then I call them to tell them of there error and then ask me to bring back the prescription so "They can have a look"
I explain to them that they should know what they prescribed me and there is no sense in me bringing the prescription back.
I then inquire if the have the actual auto injector that I was looking for.
"Oh no we do not have that one here"
Ok JACKASSES you just asked me to come in a bring back the prescription and then you can not even give me what I need.
PEOPLE are so stupid.

The last few days have been hell. Or close to it.

At least I got a facial today it was great really, I open my dishwasher and stood over the steam. (hey I am on a budget)

Doug is my new best friend!

So This guy Doug commented on my blog (Comments)

He mentioned that it was illegal for the company to not give me the job because of my injury. So thanks to his link I did a little research on the site and contacted a few people.
Turns out it is in fact illegal for them to deny me the job because of my injury.

So I call the Fair Employment Housing Administration and advised them of my case.
They too say the company can not do what they are doing, they advised me to send the information that HR requested along with a letter.

Here it is.

Attention: Sabrina *********************************

As per our phone conversation on Tuesday March 7, 2006.

Please find attached a copy of the final medical evaluation and an explanation of my disabilities.
Per our conversations you also requested a doctor’s letter stating what my level of disability is, as well as why I am being prescribe pain medication, I have spoken to both doctors involved and neither was able to prepare (in the 2 day time frame I was given to hold the position) neither could prepare a report on time.

I have done some research into the issue of my disability and have spoken to the Fair Employment and Housing Association I feel I have been unfairly declined the position that I have been offered and am fully qualified to do.

A qualified individual with a disability is a person who meets legitimate skill, experience, education, or other requirements of an employment position that s/he holds or seeks, and who can perform the "essential functions" of the position with or without reasonable accommodation. Requiring the ability to perform "essential" functions assures that an individual with a disability will not be considered unqualified simply because of inability to perform marginal or incidental job functions. If the individual is qualified to perform essential job functions except for limitations caused by a disability, the employer must consider whether the individual could perform these functions with a reasonable accommodation. If a written job description has been prepared in advance of advertising or interviewing applicants for a job, this will be considered as evidence, although not conclusive evidence, of the essential functions of the job.


I ask that you kindly review my situation and advise me if the job offer to work at the RANDOM COMPANY still stands.

I look forward to hearing from you.

Sincerely
Random Musings

So thanks so much Doug for the information. I tried to find the link to your blog however it seems it has not been activated.

So I will keep you all posted if I am able to MAKE these people give me a job.

Oh and I got the job I interviewed for today too, however its 46 miles away and anyone who has ever driven in LA knows it will take me 2 hours to work and 2 hours home. Not to mention that I would also have to pay $8 day in tolls! Serious. They would have to pay me $20 hour to make it worth my while and some how I doubt that will ever happen.

UGG I wish I did not want this job so bad! I mean its 2 miles from home, and they are paying me more than I asked for plus bonuses!!!

Ha ha Now we wait to see what there response will be.


***** Revised******* Ack I was too clouded in my head and fume coming from my ears that incorrectly read the name or the guy who commented, that or I just did not read it and "Poof" Doug came to my head, which is weird because I do not even know any Dougs? Weird? Anyways it was BRUNO who gave me the link THANKS BRUNO!! *** hugs****

Job searching

UUUGGG
I hate job searching!
I hate being unemployed looking for a job...
I wish there was a better reason for me being unemployed (something like I was too fantastic for my last job..I was but that's besides the point)
I wish I never got hurt....


Ok I now have my head out of my ass... And the pity party is over for now..
I have a job interview at noon.
YEPEE I guess... Its way far from home though so they better pay me good.
On a funny note I applied for this job last night at 9pm, the lady called me this morning at 7am. (yes I am that fabulous!)

I can not wait to set sail.... And move far, far away...

Oh and I apologize for not sending out yesterdays invitation for the self loathing pity party. It sort of sprung up last minute so I just had a spontaneous blow out.
I will try to think ahead for next time.
Thanks for your support and understanding.. (I can really be a smart ass when I want)
lol

SO FRIGGIN FRUSTRATED AND PISSED OFF!!

FUCK!
I had a big long post.
It fucking disappeared!!
I AM A LITTLE ANGRY!!!!

CALL THE NEW JOB TODAY TO FIND OUT WHEN I START.

"Um yeah we can not hire you because the medical said you did not qualify"

"Oh, how can that be?" (in the sweetest voice ever while cursing under my breath)

"I'm not sure but you can call HR to find out why"

"Great I think I will do that, I'll call you back and let you know what comes of it"

So I call.

Uneducated ass hole who knows everything picks up the phone.

"Um yeah we can not offer you a job because you are taking pain medication"

"WHAT? I will be taking pain medication for the rest of my life and its completely irrelevant to the position I have applied for and you are declining the job offer because I am injured?"

"Well we just need to know that your problem will not become OUR problem" (spoken in the most condensending voice ever!)

"So how do I fix this?"

"Well (long pause and it sounded like she was filing her fucking nails) we would need letter from your doctor stating what's wrong and why you need to take pain medication and that you have in fact been released back to work."

"Well I can do that, is that all that's required for me to still work there"

"Yes we will have a doctor review you file and make sure YOUR problems do not become OUR problems and everything should be fine."

AHHHH

So I call the lawyer (seems logical right?)

Hes not in the office. Again.

Listen fuckers over at the Lawyers office, when I ask for him you tell me to hold, then in 5 minutes you come back to the phone and say hes not in the office today. And he probably will not be in tomorrow either.
DO YOU THINK I AM AN IDIOT! He's clearly screening his calls and does not want to get involved as the weekend is near and it may interfere with his T TIME.
FUCKERS

So I call the doctors office to tell then what I need to be faxed to the HR department.
"Oh OUR doctors do not "DO" letters"
What the fuck.
"I can fax them all your medical records if you like all you would need to do is come in a pay us $45 and we will have them ready for you in 3-5 business days."

So tomorrow I need to figure this shit out.

THIS IS MY LIFE!

Oh and the rents going up.

Fuck

So I am trying to get my hubby to update his blog!

He has one. And usually he bitches about me. Sometimes about life. But I love reading stuff he writes. Even the mundane stuff. Like I drive him crazy ect.
I keep asking him to update so I can add him to links and you all can really see what the other half is about....
Maybe if I keep bugging him constantly he'll give in (this usually works)

Oh and I can mention the 25 minute massage I gave his sore muscles this evening. (because I am such a good wife)

I will think of more things I am sure.

Myself I love to blog. (As I am sure you all know)
Its an outlet. A place to bitch about life and celebrate the successes of marriage.
I am sure some times I give out too much information but I usually write this like no one reads it. I know some of you do, and I apologize for not being more glamorous and I am sure to pay special attention to no longer post about bower movements.
But Shit happens. (I know, sad)

And I like to amuse myself sometimes.

And its great for me when its 1:30am and I am wide awake....yet again...
My body is tired and aching and sore from the serious workout I put it through but my mind is going a mile a minute...

I love to peruse the 100 blogs on my list and serch the NEXT BLOG button at the top.

I tell you what though, it bothers me while surfing that random sex sites come up. Oh and another thing I HATE THE POP UPS they really suck too.

If I want a sex site I will find myself there on my own thank you very much.

What is going on with my face??

OK remember me mentioning the zits I had? Or what I thought was zits?
The hubby comes home from work, squints at my face, comes closer to me and says "What the hell is all over your chin?"
I still have no idea what it is. I look like Bozo the clown and the rash/pimples/hives are only on my chin and it looks ridiculous!
I HATE HAVING SUPER SENSITIVE SKIN.
My skin is so sensitive that if I put cream on it, any kind of cream (and trust me I HAVE TRIED EVERYTHING!) my face itches and rashes out its anger on me.
So last night what I was thinking was pimples I treated with Zit cream.
Easy enough. Right?
My whole chin is bright red and burning. No pimples showing at all.
I wish I knew what the hell it was.
Ah to have skin that I could put cream on. Want to hear something funny. The only cream my face will let me use is Jergens. *GASP* I know so bad for your skin but I have tried everything else.
Here's the list.
Dove
Clinic
MAC
Loreal
Channel (I know I would try anything to get a great face moisturizer)
Clean and Clear (for sensitive skin, and the regular stuff too)
Oil Olay
Ceptaphil
Suave
Aveno
Aveda (all the skin care lines)
Bath and Body Works (again all lines)
Johnson and Johnson baby cream (yes still itchy also too greasy)
Sephora (for sensitive skin)
Mary Kay (because I was told I HAD TO TRY IT, was the worst ever)
Lush (all natural)
Pro Active (even though I do not have acne I thought the skin care would be good for me)

And I give each a good try. I do not stop using it after one use because I think I need to train my skin to be not so sensitive. It does not work.
And the only thing I can shower with is Ivory Soap (*gasp* yes I use this to wash my face) I some times, it will not permit me to use daily is Loreal face scrub.
AHH what it would be like to have skin of steal.

I HAVE ISSUES.

Actually my skin has issues.

I like me just fine. lol
So with the hubby suggestion of putting Neosporin on it to see if it helps I am walking around the house with a gross shiny chin.
You think the husband would be supportive as it was his idea.
No he laughed at me. Out loud. And shook his head at what a mess I was.

*** UGG I just check on line about what this possible thing could be
I came across Shingles- Ewww but I read the symptoms and Weweh!Not shingles *shudder**

I have come to the conclusion that is just an allergic reaction.
Too What?
I have no idea.

There is a great body under there...

I know there is.... Shit lots of work to get back there though...
I have been keeping a secret that I have told my mom (I must mention that the mom so kindly replied "Geez you better be careful because getting fat can cause problems in your marriage." Always kind words from mom. And the hubby who of coarse laughed at me and said he has always loved my body and he likes my ass. (he probably loved it better when there was a lot less of the ass but still)
The accident and lack of exercise has cost me to gain some weight.
Now that I have come to terms with that I need to get it off again, but I have to change what I would usually be doing because of my back. I can not lift any weights in regards to my back or shoulders. This should be interesting. I know how to train but to start I think I am going to just do lots of cardio. I need to see what my limits with my back are before I can do weights.
Ahh..***sigh***.
Shit. I hate saying "This is it time to do this"
I went to the gym on Sunday and it was good. I got in the grove but now that I am going to be going back to work (hopefully tomorrow, somehow its strange how I have said this for the last 5 days straight) I need to get in as much gym time as I can.
Ahh
Off to the gym.

WTF?

Was it me or did everyone this year with the exception of a few look like they were having a contest to see who would make the best human cake topper?

There were so many bad, bad dresses.

I mean she looked at herself in the mirror in this and everything.
Sometimes, actually I think this is proof that so many famous people can not think for themselves and have their little elves running around kissing their asses saying stuff like.

"No its not too much at all"

"No it certainly does not hide your gorgeous body and the bow is beautiful on you."

"Clown? Are you kidding?"

I will however give her credit for the shoes. They were fabulous!

The Volcano I call a face

What the fuck! Serious! I have never gotten pimples in my life. Ok one or two here or there but never like this. And because I have no experience in the face explosion I can not tell if they are zits or hives. I think they may be both. I drank Lemonade today which I think may be giving me hives because immediately after consuming said drink my face got super itchy and red then these huge mountains appeared, at first they all blended together but now on closer examination they seem to be separate reining there own terror on my chin.
Oh and then I tried to clean my face with cleanser and the nice little thing I will call sand paper to get up a good lather.... I usually just use it as a srub in the shower but this mess called for the extra measures.
Then I applied Acne cream OUCH! MY FACE IS ON FIRE.
I have been blessed with not having to deal with this on a daily basis, once a month I get maybe a pimple or two but never anything like this.
GEEZ
Oh and I am afraid to poop. There I said it.
I was so sick last week that my body has become poop shy/scared.
I'm sure it will pass but for the time being my body wants to cramp up and convulse and my ass puckers at the thought of pooping.

Ah this is my life

WWEHOOO

Just a quick post. I can not give you to many details but the change that is coming is HUGE!
When I say HUGE I mean way HUGE! And I am SO PROUD!!
The hubby and I will be moving over seas in the next year, and no it's not the military (thank goodness)?
I know you thought baby, but any baby talks will be in holding motion for at least 3 years. Yes I know seems like forever trust me I know but there are bigger and better things to come for now.
Wow!
Its amazing what a letter from Fed Ex can do.
This will all take the next 9 months of paperwork and I will fill you all in on the details soon.

Oh and I was supposed to go back to work today but they still have not received the paperwork from the clinic so I am shit out of luck.
So again I wait for the idiots working in the US medical system to get of there asses so I can go back to work.

No Motivation

Ah, so I am supposed to be headed to the gym. It seems I have not been in awhile and I am not so happy with myself.
But to get off my big ass and go is another story. The sweaty gross gym. I have just updated my MP3 player so now I have no excuses,new batteries, new songs...
Ahh.. Off I go..
Be back soon with the Adventures of the gym, I am sure there will be one, maybe if I am lucky (yeah right) I will get on the elliptical behind the hairy guy who's ass is hanging out...
Here I go.

Uneventful Weekend

So Friday the hubby and I stayed home and watched movies. It was fun I love date nights. We started to watch the stupidest movie ever... The Date Movie? It was so dumb we could not even get through the whole movie.
Saturday I went to Bingo, I had one free pass left so I figured that before I go back to work I would really woop it up.lol I am a loser I know. It was fun and yet again I never won.
But that's the way it goes.

Oh and I can not start work on Monday cause the dumb asses at the clinic I went to for my drug testing and physical forgot to fax the office the last page. So now I have to wait till Monday to see the results and find out when I start. (I hope I pass the drug screen....lol) As if they are going to have a look and find out I am addicted to Vicodin....Serious though I have not taken that shit in over a month.

3 More days to sleep in!

Its hard to believe that after a year I will be going back to work.
With that said I am already planning our next vacation. LOL Serious. Things are going to finally be quasi normal again after a whole year. We can make plans to do things in the future as opposed to waiting to see if something happens. It will be good to be finished with all this injury shit.
1 year down 60 days to go (at least that's what the lawyers say right now who knows what the truth is)
**sigh** almost there.


Went to the mother in laws for dinner last night, she called in the afternoon to check in and see how things were going, she too just got over the crazy kick ass flu that I must have got from her, we compared stories and hoped no one else we knew got sick.
She cooked dinner while I did laundry.
What I would do to have my own washer and dryer.

I have started to make a mental list. (actually I wrote some of it down)
of things we are going to need when we buy our house (hopefully in the next 2 years or sooner if $500,000.00 would just fall from the sky)
Can you believe homes out here in this dump sell for half a million?? I mean I could take that 1/2 million and move back to Ottawa and buy a HUGE mansion with that money.
Who knows we find out this week if we may be moving over seas anyways which would make buying a house here in Southern California sort of dumb really.

Long bitching Rant

Ok So I have not been blogging for the last 4 days because.
I have been puking and pissing out my ass.
Serious. I have been struck with the worst case of the flu known to man. I can not even hold down my own spit. This is good for weight lose however when the "weehoo" I am losing weight phase passes you wonder what you have been doing to piss off the powers at be.
I have found a new talent!
I can puke and shit at the same time.
Ok too much information.

I GOT THE JOB. And even though I am sick as a dog I was required to do a drug test which is really hard to do when you are so de-hydrated from being so friggin sick and you have just puked for the hundrenth time and then they want you to pee in a cup. See if I was healthy this would not be a problem however... Needless to say this was a daunting task, when I returned the cup the the "nurse" I was told it was not enough and I would have to wait and pee some more, I must have growled at her and then in fine form I puked in the garbage behind her. She let me off the hook. Then she proceeded to talk about the strain of the flu going around blah, blah.
Then it was time to take my pulse. I fail. My pulse was 117. To send it in as I am a healthy person it has to be 100.
"Well jackass it could be cause I just puked!" I utter in my head
Nurse "Well I think we are going to need you to come back when you are feeling better, we are going to need to hold everything till we get a good pulse."
"What the F%75K!!" I dragged my ass in and then its all for nothing??
Anyways.
I went back yesterday to have my pulse taken. I fail yet again. Its 127 this time. Then the nurse (not the same one from yesterday) says
"You look really sick, how about we cheat?"
Me "What can we do that?"
Nurse "Not really but you are really sick and that will effect your blood pressure I am going to have you lay down for about 20 minutes then I will try again"
Thank goodness for cheating nurses
Finally pulse 88.

I talked to my lawyer. Turns out that if my employers that I was injured at wants to take me back then they do not have to pay me anything for my injury. Good old Arnold changed all the laws in California when he came in as Governor and all the workman comp laws work for the employer.
So I am disabled from the accident however if the job wants to take me back and agrees to keep me for 1 year then they do not have to settle with me.
WHAT THE FUCK!
You mean I have to deal with this problem the rest of my life yet they get a break if they take me back?? We have already established that I can not longer do the job?
Anyways we go to court in 60 days to figure it all out.

Good news?
I have not puked in over 1 hour. Thats good news right?