Today it snowed in Southern California

And its all anyone can talk about. But can you blame them. Serious on my drive to work today I thought it was a little cold, then I see it. And it makes me smile. Its so strange to see snow because it was 80 degrees the other day. Oh and next weekend it goes back to 70 degrees. I took some video of it because I thought it was so tripy to see it snowing on the palm trees. I will try to figure out how to post it tomorrow.
Oh and I thought this was funny too.. a blowing palm tree with rain and snow on the side with some sun.
Only in California.

If I can brush my teeth tomorrow I will be surprised!

Lets just say the yoga class KICKED MY FUCKING ASS!! The good news is also that I managed NOT to pass out in class (just barely) And I did not puke either (I waited till I got home)
But other than that this fitness shit sure feels good **note sarcasm**
I could barely do the whole class and it became REALLY evident how bad I am out of shape.
My body deserves it though, I came home all proud, ripped off my shirt and pronounced to the hubby "LOOK HOW SWEATY I AM, FEEL IT I AM SOAKED ALL THE WAY THROUGH"

He smiles touches me with one finger "So it was a good class then?"

"Yeah you should come with me, it would totally KILL you!"

"Yeah your probably right"

The only bad thing is this place is 45 minutes away. But they gave me a REALLY great deal because there is a studio thats only 25 minutes away and they offered me a week at both places for the same price. So once I am done this week I am going to try the new studio to decide if its worth it or not.

I will not be able to walk normal tomorrow but that new penguin movie is out so a little waddle may be kinda cute.

Oh and I am going back tomorrow because it was that fucking fantastic to sweat and get rid of all the toxins in my body. ** Only if I can move though, but how does the saying go? Hair off the dog who bit you?**

Delurking

Ok So Alfredsmom is doing it and I think it would be interesting to see who reads this and never comments? I know there are some of you out there because I can tell from my stat counter so say HELLO.. come out of the woodwork, tell me why you read this.. if you like this... me...lol...
No in all seriousness I LOVE comments and I love to see where you all are...
Or if you do not want to comment email me to tell me where you are!!
crazyrandommusings@yahoo.ca

Oh and if you link me and I have not linked you yet let me know.. LINKING is good.. also that way I can snoop at your links and find some more good reads

Random thoughts

Driving to work today in the fast lane and this asshole in front of me slams on his breaks SO FUCKING hard I literally swerve into the shoulder to avoid hitting his ass.... So the lady behind me then proceeds to do the same thing and so on you get the picture, well the lady that was behind me after we are on our way again, decides that its my fault the guy in front of me slammed on his breaks and drives by me waving like a maniac yelling that I am an idiot. (80 out again today it was warm and the windows were down)
So I do what any respectable Canadian would do to a frustrated , irritated, road raged out lady.

I smile and wave... and laugh my ass off....

I went to a roller rink last night and had SO much fun. Jessica is a roller derby chick and there is an open skate on Monday nights so I tagged along, this rink was INSANE it was straight 1970 disco ball included, black light, old tunes bumping rollerskating rink. IT WAS SO MUCH FUN, I tried to roller skate but the rentals were also from the 1970 and been worn by about 1000 people to many before retirement so I stuck to my roller blades. What a workout that was, and lets just say my ass and thighs today are fucking killing me.. But I will go again this Monday.

I am going to try out this yoga studio tomorrow night. Where I used to live in Canada there was this Yoga place right across the street from me and I became addicted to Bikram Yoga. If you have never tried it I would HIGHLY recommend it. Its 26 poses (no worries I will not be standing on my head) and its done in a heated room. Like 100 degrees heated room. And you sweat A LOT but its so good for you and I miss it, this studio I am trying is like a 45 minute drive from home so I hope its good. Shit I could use a good sweat session (oh baby..lol)

The hubby took me to dinner tonight which was AWESOME we are both on this heath kick, he's training to get into better shape and lose weight and so am I (for our fabulous trip home of coarse) so at dinner I made sure only to bring 2 desserts home...lol serious...

Life is too short to diet!

And I do not know why this is all printing in small.. I tried to fix it but I think those blogger people are pissed that I bad mouthed blogger BETA... Fuckers..

WEEHOO 4 months to go

So its official, the time is booked off work, so come hell or highwater (thanks mom) the hubby and I will be going home in May for 10 days.
CAN I TELL YOU HOW EXCITED I AM??
Oh and it happens to be my bestest friends 30th birthday so I am SUPPER excited about that and its mothers day so my mom will be happy too.
It will have been 2 years by the time we get there and I vow not to let that happen again, its too good for the soul to spend time with friends and family. Not to mention that I will have 3 weeks off work (part of my agreement for them hiring me) which is cool. Time to relax and recharge the batteries.

Oh and it was 80 degrees today... its 7pm and its still 72 degrees outside... life is good (its snowing back home and almost in the minuses)

How did they get here???

So I find it interesting to see how people get here through stat counter.

1. It was never between you and them anyways

2. Reason's why I love my husband

3. Emma hiscock lifeguard

4. What happened to raspberry jam laura secord

5. My hubbymaximbestfriend

6. I had to drip dry panty no tp

7. Fine art sales gerry blood

8. Free Sex movie neighbor housewife

9. Panty Thief

10. Sexless Marriages

11. Random Stupid facts

12. I have dd's

13. The best milkshake ever

14. Breast pain early pregnancy

15. Bum panties company

16.New panties

17. Pilates

18. Spinal injury

19. best compliment girlfriend (3 times)

20. We had sex tonight Ottawa

21. Protruding disk swallow

22. Physical today my bra

23. migraine headachs in children

24. nerologist

25. The pussy cat lounge fake id

26. Why are people so fake

27. big boobs run in the family

28. drunk in heels

See some of them make complete sense but really.. what the hell, I sure do talk about a lot of shit!! Happy Friday

Two Wolves

One evening an old Cherokee told his grandson about a battle that goes on inside people. He said, "My son, the battle is between two "wolves" inside us all.

One is Evil. It is anger, envy, jealousy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority, and ego.

The other is Good. It is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence,empathy, generosity, truth, compassion and faith."

The grand son thought about it for a minute and then asked his grandfather: "Which wolf wins?"

The old Cherokee simply replied, "The one you feed."



This was a forward I really liked. Its true to the word.

The resolutions list. (to start anyways)

1. Laugh more you can never be too serious. (and even if it is at myself talking to myself, as the hubby pointed out in the mornings)

2.Spend 5 minutes a day picking up after myself. (lets face it I am a bit of a slob)

3.Be better to my body, and myself.

4.Call home more (even though my mother drives me crazy I am blessed to have her in my life, and my dad he's not so crazy but as he gets older I really worry about him)

5. Run 5 miles (not a bad goal I am giving it a year)

6. Take at least 1 picture everyday for my own 365 project

10. Spend more time reading/walking/exercising.

11. Plan a vacation for 2008 to Europe.

12. Save more money (keeping in mind shoes are NOT essential thanks Crazy Aunt Purl)

13. Volunteer more.

14. FINALLY be out of debt and on to bigger and better things.

15. Call friends more often. (I miss them all like crazy)

Thats a good start. I am sure I will add more as I go. As I reflect on this year its been a great year and a lot of "good" things have happened this year.
I have a great new job, I have a blessed marriage I am thankful for lots of stuff this year. I LOVE all the new people I have made connections with on this blog. **waves entusiastically to everyone*** Its been a year of blogging for me here too. My "blog birthday" was the 23rd of December.

I wish you all a great 2007 (shit its 2007 already?)!!!

It has been a GREAT night out when!!!

* You come home and have both shoes.

* You still have your purse as well as all the contents in it (minus any cash because lets face it you spent it all at the bar)

* Your body is aching from all the dancing you did the night before.

* You remember playing pool and you were quite good at it.

* You get home and realize that you in fact drank 3/4 of the WHOLE bottle of vodka in the 1/2 hour before you left for the bar.

* Your feet have bruises on the top of them and you only assume they are from the "moment" when you kicked off your shoes to better shake your ass.

* That you got so many comments on your shoes from all the boys (we went to a gay club)

* You now have a six pack from laughing so hard.

* You get VIP service from Lewis at the cab company who we asked to come get us at 2am and we walk out of the bar and everyone is trying to get a cab and he comes around the corner and honks for us.

* You realize that Jessica is now on the "great friends" list because, she refused to let you puke in the cab and told you to wait till we get to Denny's. And yes she did rub your back while you barfed your face off in front of the Denny's telling everyone who asked that "No she's fine, she just needs to get it out of her system" and then she helps me blow my nose on my top, wipes the running mascara from my face so we can eat before we go home. (and she only snickers a few times telling you shes going to puke herself when she gets home)

* She helps you look for glass on the ground while you walk home refusing to wear your shoes.

* You wake up in the morning and you realize the sense you had the night before to take the bobby pins out of your hair and had a shower while drunk to remove all war paint, puke and bar tar from your body.

* You are still alive and kicking and it only hurts (everything hurts) a bit!!

Hope you all had a GREAT new years eve

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

So I mentioned I was going to start naming my shoes. Well these new PUPPIES I am going to name Salinna (respectfully) because lets face it she's going to look and them and say "Fuck off" and then shes going to want to come and visit just to wear them. Ha ha.
I am so bad. Went to the mall today, and if it was not going to close at 6pm I would have probably come home with more shoes. The SALES ARE CRAZY. I am not kidding, I think I may go back and get a pair of these for Sal because lets face it when you find a pair of $129.00 Nine West boots on sale with tax included and they cost $17.89 thats A GREAT deal. Jessica got some great ones too, i'll have to post them.
I love getting deals on shoes it makes me so happy.

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!! I hope you have a safe and happy night!! I will be dancing the night away in these bad boys because they are B.E.A.U.T.I.F.U.L!!!

This was the sunset on Christmas Eve.

This was taken from our patio. Its going to be a great year!!

Pictures from around the neighborhood

Sorry its they are so blurry I am not sure why it happened like that. This was a cool little palm tree. And without the flash its hard to tell those are plam trees. Oh well I tried...lol.
The bottom picture is of a really interesting neighbor the sign says something about hell and death. Serious. In between the cross.

Another 4 day weekend, and black poop!

WEHOO for me. I love the weekend. I love that I just worked 3 days this week and its the weekend. I love that I do not have to go back to work for 4 days.
Life is good.

On a not so funny note. And I can not believe I am going to tell you all this (actually I can I have not shame) so the other day I went to the bathroom and my poop was BLACK. Serious. So I immediatley think worst case senario and I am going to die. I look back one more time just to make sure. Yep its black. So I RUN to the computer to pull up WebMD.com
and in my haste (because I am dying you know) I type in black poop, all I got was a thing for parents when there babies poop changes color, I rack my brain for the proper word and I type it in only to learn

It is important to visit your health professional when stools are black, tarry, or mixed with blood that is bright red or dark red. Talk with your doctor any time you have new rectal bleeding or notice blood on your stools. Your health professional may recommend screening tests to rule out a more serious problem, such as inflammatory bowel disease (IBD), colorectal cancer, or diverticulosis. There are easy tests you can get from your health professional to check for even very small amounts of blood in your stool.

And I AM FREAKING OUT!!! Because you know I went to read all the diseases thinking that must be it, I am almost in tears I have left messages with everyone I know to call me right away! Then I scroll down a little on the page only to read

Note:

Some foods and medicines can also change the look of the stool. If you take bismuth subsalicylate, such as Pepto-Bismol, or iron tablets, your stool may look black, and if you eat lots of beets, your stool may turn red.

Fucking Pepto-Bismol

Ok this was a cool forward I had to post

A corporate attorney sent the following out to the employees in his company.

1. The next time you order checks have only your initials (instead of first name) and last name put on them. If someone takes your checkbook,they will not know if you sign your checks with just your initials or your first name, but your bank will know how you sign your checks.

2. Do not sign the back of your credit cards. Instead, put "PHOTO ID REQUIRED."

3. When you are writing checks to pay on your credit card accounts, DO NOT put the complete account number on the "For" line. Instead, just put the last four numbers. The credit card company knows the rest of the number, and anyone who might be handling your check as it passes through all the check-processing channels will not have access to it.

4. Put your work phone # on your checks instead of your home phone. If you have a PO Box, use that instead of your home address. If you do not have a PO Box, use your work address. Never have your SS# printed on your checks, (DUH!). You can add it if it is necessary. However, if you have it printed, anyone can get it.

5. Place the contents of your wallet on a photocopy machine. Do both sides of each license, credit card, etc. You will know what you had in your wallet and all of the account numbers and phone numbers to call and cancel. Keep the photocopy in a safe place. Also carry a photocopy of your passport when traveling either here or abroad. We have all heard horror stories about fraud that is committed on us in stealing a name, address, Social Security number, credit cards.

6. When you check out of a hotel that uses cards for keys (and they all seem to do that now), do not turn the "keys" in. Take them with you and destroy them. Those little cards have on them all of the information you gave the hotel, including address and credit card numbers and expiration dates. Someone with a card reader, or employee of the hotel, can access all that information with no problem whatsoever.

Unfortunately, as an attorney, I have first hand knowledge because my wallet was stolen last month. Within a week, the thieves ordered an expensive monthly cell phone package, applied for a VISA credit card, had a credit line approved to buy a Gateway computer and received a PIN number from DMV to change my driving record information online. Here is some critical information to limit the damage in case this happens to you or someone you know:

1. We have been told we should cancel our credit cards immediately. The key is having the toll free numbers and your card numbers handy so you know whom to call. Keep those where you can find them.

2. File a police report immediately in the jurisdiction where your credit cards, etc., were stolen. This proves to credit providers you
were diligent, and this is a first step toward an investigation (if there ever is one). However, here is what is perhaps most important of all (I never even thought to do this.)

3. Call the three national credit reporting organizations immediately to place a fraud alert on your name and Social Security number. I had never heard of doing that until advised by a bank that called to tell me an application for credit was made over the Internet in my name. The alert means any company that checks your credit knows your information was stolen, and they have to contact you by phone to authorize new credit. By the time I was advised to do this, almost two weeks after the theft, all the damage had been done. There are records of all the credit checks initiated by the thieves' purchases, none of which I knew about before placing the alert. Since then, no additional damage has been done, and the thieves threw my wallet away this weekend (someone
turned it in). It seems to have stopped them dead in their tracks.

Now, here are the numbers you always need to contact about your wallet and contents being stolen:

1.) Equifax: 1-800-525-6285
2.) Experian (formerly TRW): 1-888-397-3742
3.) TransUnion: 1-800-680-7289
4.) Social Security Administration (fraud line): 1-800-269-0271

Ok number 6 really surprised me. Serious. Having had my own wallet stolen YEARS ago I can so relate to this letter. Not to mention when you realize its been stolen trying to remember what the hell credit cards you had in your wallet at the time. Yeah fun times

How California does Christmas

I thought this would make people at home jealous. Really look at all that green grass, ha ha and the lawn is all done up. Jess and I were driving through a neighborhood and I pulled over to take some pictures. See how they even put fake snow on top of it? Its cute I think.


OH and its BEEN COLD here!! Serious I have been so spoiled but the other day I had ICE on my window!! 3 years I have NEVER seen ice here in California. Its been a bit cold but we are finally back to 73 degrees. Its nice.
Oh and I have been meaning to drive around (actually I may do that tonight) to get pictures of decorated palm trees.

Merry Christmas!!

Here's wishing everyone a Merry Christmas!!

I love this holiday. Jessica and I have been shopping for the last 2 days. The malls have been crazy but there are some really great sales going on.
We are doing the traditional Christmas eve diner tomorrow night. Yep we go to TGIF. Yeah me the hubby and the BIL, and Jessica are going for dinner. We have done it for the last 3 years so its a bit of a tradition (this is the first year for Jess cause shes not going home and is alone)...

We were at the mall yesterday and we were walking behind a police officer, because the malls we SO busy we were stuck behind him so I say loud enough for him to hear me "Come on, Jess lets go shop lift in this store!" Jessica was worried we were going to get arrested, we were both in stitches the cop just laughed and waved... It does not take much to amuse me some times.

Fun times and getting caught!!!

Not that kind of caught!! (sickos..lol)

SO funny, so I am at work, its a few days before a 4 day weekend. I am

Thinking I am being pretty smart and working through most of my tasks Quickly and efficiently and I am about to reward myself with a little post or maybe a sneak peak at some blogs.

YOU ARE NOT PERMITTED TO USE THIS SITE IT’S A SITE THAT IS PERSONAL IN NATURE AND CAN NOT BE USED DURING BUSINESS HOURS!! (note the BOLD)

THIS ATTEMPT WILL BE LOGGED TO THE SYSTEM ADMINISTRATOR AS WELL AS ALL FUTURE ATTEMPTS!!

So I sit there thinking that someone from IT is about to come down and slap me on the wrist for my wrong doing. I should just confess. I have issues. I must blog daily. I must read blogs daily, if I do not I will be really sick. Or something will happen to someone and I will not be there to give my opinion or advice and I LOVE the comments and I love to comment (even if you do not want to here it) Mental note to self **no blogging at work**

So about this picture...

Yep those are my feet. And yes that’s an adult onesie!! ha ha

Laugh all you want but I love my full feet pj's, they are just like the ones your babies wear. My hubby always laughs when I wear them and calls me a little kid. And its been SO friggin cold here!!

True story about the onesie: Not this one I have a pink one too (yes I HAVE 2) I loved it so much I bought matching ones for my friends last time I went home and I have the pictures to prove it.

What strange confessions do you have? Do you have an adult onesie? Ha ha I am a freak I know this....

New shoes!! From th hubby for Christmas!

So in the Christmas spirit, red shoes and green shoes. Oh and in my defense about my shoe "thing" I NEVER pay full price for shoes. EVER! And if I have to have them I wait till they go on sale (they always go on sale) And I only buy them IF I LOVE THEM! Serious, I am very picky when it comes to shoes. I am not saying they have to be practical because it is clear many of my shoes were only made to "look good" but you know after a few drinks who can tell?


Ha ha, I know like it seems like I have a lot and compared to some people I do. I even made My new friend Jess buy 2 sexy pairs of heels, I almost pouted when she also purchased what I like to call "Grandma" shoes. Or you know practical shoes.
I have compiled a list why I love shoes.

1. They never make me feel fat.

2. No matter what a cute shoe can cheer me up.

3. I LOVE to get compliments when I sport some cute shoes, I think maybe that's why I do it. I ALWAYS get compliments on my shoes. I think really the only reason they comment is because they are really thinking "Shit this girl is CRAZY teetering around in those things, she gonna break her freaking neck"

4. THEY ARE SO MUCH FUN TO SHOP FOR!!! There is a great pleasure in finding the BEST shoes in my size and on sale. Nothing beats it. (well nothing really but we are taking ONLY about shoes right?)

Things going on in my head ...

And things I have been up to!

*I have been busy shopping...tee hee More shoe pictures to come, ha ha
I asked the hubby what he was getting me for Christmas and he told me
to go buy some shoes..lol Serious. So needless to say I did, that same
day, I bought 2 pairs. (and he says I am hard to shop for)

*I spent the weekend with all the rest of America in the malls shopping
for deals. I do not shop very often and when I have been given a
specific task to shop for shoes then it gets serious.

*I think I may switch. To blogger Beta. Only because its been giving me
SO MUCH TROUBLE and all the other kids are doing it so its gotta be a
good idea right? I have heard its messed up some peoples templates and
now that mine is all pretty I am not sure I want to, and then theres the
issue of being an individual SOOO we will see.

*I am getting REALLY excited for my trip back to Canada in May!! WEEHOO

*I am also starting back at the gym. My work schdual has changed and
now if I do not leave my house earlier I end up in traffic for over an
hour, so I would rather spend that hour in the gym by leaving earlier.

*I need a hair cut. I think I will go short again, maybe a "bob"

*I am working on getting some pictures together for you all to see me.
(I know exciting stuff) But its time I may try this new thing called
365 where you post a picture of yourself everyday. I think it will be
cool because I can see all my weight progress. But then I am shy and I am
not sure if I will let all you guys see. I may just keep it for myself.

List of things to do today

* Finish Christmas cards- Still procrastinating about this
* Go to bank- Check
* Switch cell phones- Long Story but no check
* Mail care package- 12 lbs Care package is in the mail
* Re-print CD and mail to cousin (with pictures from when she was here)- need to wait till someone more computer savy than me gets home to burn CD
* Try NOT to buy shoes- Tried on shoes and did not purchase
* Figure out what to get the hubby- He says I am hard to shop for (yeah right)
* Find organizers for shoes- Did not want to enter Walmart hell or Target hell today

BLOGGER BETTA SUCKS ASS!!

Serious.
All you traders that have switch WILL NOT LET ME COMMENT.
I feel like the kid in the corner eating paste, I see it all going on, I want to join in the fun but blogger will not let me!!

Shit.

Now what do I do when I can not comment on peoples blogs? Do I turn my blog in to a "look for your comments" blog.

Shit. And I thought it was just the other day, then yesterday, and TODAY TOO!! BETTA SUCKS ASS!!

sniff sniff..i'll just sit here and sulk. See I love getting comments, and I love to comment and now that has been taking away.... Bastards

Shoes always make me feel better...

I wonder if its normal. You know, to take pictures at ones shoes, so as the world can admire them as you do?
And then having dreams about shoes when your template is being made and someone who knows you ONLY from ready this blog and has never spoken words to you in person, does a design that is so fitting?
And you get picky because some of the shoes in the background are ugly? lol Serious people I have issues.
Oh and to add to my issues I explained to the hubby how much weight I want to lose by May for my trip home and he has said "Babe, i'll tell you what. For a little motivation if you lose "the amount I want to lose" weight you can go shopping and buy whatever you want including shoes for your trip and I will not say anything about it"

HOWS THAT FOR SOME MOTIVATION!!


Oh and I think I am going to start naming them, you know how when you buy shoes they always have fun names with some of the brands?


What do you think of these 2?? I know I always get honest answers from y'all.

So sick!!

So day 3 of my new job and I have had to call in sick. Yeah what a great impression to make. While at least I was there yesterday hacking and WEEZING my face off, so bad that I went through a whole box of kleenex and everyone told me I should not be there.
But for me its a hard thing to do, especially since I just started.
Oh well I will get over it I guess I am just hoping this cold/flu/congested head will break tonight so I can go in tomorrow. And if not at least I have many movies to watch at home.

ITS SO PRETTY!!

Do you like? I love my new design, done by none other than our own Danke Shane, actually by his "side" business that he just whips up customs blogs for a low, low price of $15!!! You can not get better deal than that!! Check out his custom site HERE (thankful plugg **smootches!!**)
Just wait hes doing my Photoblog too!!! I am so spoiled!!!
Stay tunned we will be tweaking it a bit here and there.

Actually email sent to Shane while he was in the mist of creating my blogs for me. (oh and just to add about my psychic abilities I had a dream the blog he did for me had shoes on it, but he was already done and thats the theme he used. Weird?)

This is what I sent to him

"I LOVE IT . But some of the shoes are ugly..lol Can we change it?"

WEEEHOO I am Canadian

You are 100% Canuck!

You rock, you are an almighty Canadian through and through. You have proven your worthiness and have won the elite prize of living in a country as awesome as Canada. Yes I know other countries think they are better, but we let them have that cuz we know better than they do, eh?

How Canadian Are You?
Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

Actual conversations with the hubby

Happens while standing in the closet.

Me "Wow, look I do have a cute red purse"

Him "Shit babe, you have so much shoes and purses you can not even keep track of all of it"

Me **Blink, Bats eyelashes and smiles**

A few minutes later

Him " I need new clothes. Its been forever since I have bought anything new, all these shirts are SO old"

Me "Yeah, you do need some new stuff, maybe we should go shopping and get us some new stuff"

Him ** blinks looks around overflowing closet shaking head*** "Yeah right you need more clothes"

Me "Well at least some more shoes"

Teddy bears for Christmas

Oh my god y'all Is doing a drive to collect 300 teddy bears to take to her local childrens hospital for Christmas. Please go visit her to donate. Or you can even send bears yourself!! Her address is posted. I know its tight this time of year but how much really is a Teddy? Or you can just donate cold hard cash!!

Randoms A-Z

So T-girl tagged me.

• A-Available/Single? Nope married (sorry boys lol)
• B-Best Friend? Salinna and my sister
• C-Cake or Pie? BOTH!! (I can pick both right?)
• D-Drink Of Choice? Malibu rum with pineapple juice..oh regular drink. Water.
• E-Essential Item You Use Everyday? My toothbrush.
• F-Favorite Color? Purple. Or Pink.
• G-Gummy Bears Or Worms? BOTH!! Ha ha I love my candy.
• H-Hometown? Thunder bay Ontario, Canada
• I-Indulgence? Shoes! Shoes and more shoes.. oh and books too.
• J-January Or February? February because that means its going to get warmer (sort of a mute point living here in Cali)
• K-Kids & Their Names? N/A (for the time being)
• L-Life Is Incomplete Without? My hubby, oh and email.
• M-Marriage Date? August 23rd
• N-Number Of Siblings? 4, 2 older brothers and a younger brother and sister.. I am the middle child.** smiles**
O-Oranges Or Apples? Apples.
P-Phobias/Fears? Feet. No really. People who do that disgusting sniffing thing where they clean there throats and make all the nose...ugg just writing that gives me gibbies!! Ugg GROSS
• Q-Favorite Quote? I don't know. Maybe "Friends are the angels that pick us up when our own wings have trouble remembering how to fly" There are a bunch I love that ones just off the top.
• R-Reason to Smile? My friends and family.. I am always laughing with the hubby.
• S-Season? Summer
• T-Tag Three People? Ha ha Ok Snarky, Anne, and Joie.
• U-Unknown Fact About Me? I have 15 lip glosses in my purse.
• V-Vegetable you don't like? I don't think I have found it yet. I like most veggies.
• W-Worst Habit? Talking too much... WAY too much... (ha ha I stole T-girls) Oh and I can be really emotional.
• X-X-rays You've Had? Back, neck, about 100 times.
• Y-Your Favorite Food? Indian, then Thai. Any food really. (you don't get an ass like this not liking food!)
Z-Zodiac Sign? Libra (yeah I am balanced...lol)

The happiest place on earth!!

Well for me anyways. This is my place. My love, it makes my heart skip a beat even when I just think about it. Is it not B.E.A.U.T.F.U.L??


Yes this is the place I dream about, the place that was put here for me.

AHH shoes.. do you see that picture? Do you see how BIG this place is? Do you see the 3 levels of shoes ALL OVER THE PLACE??? The place is HEAVEN and to make it even better (if that is at all possible) they have TONNES of sales racks, where you take a min of an extra 30%-80% off the already reduced price....
Yeah I looked like a freak taking pictures with a flash so you could all see the most prettiest place EVER.
Ahhh just blogging about it makes me happy! So now do you understand? Do you understand that when you have places to shop like this that you would have to have issues? Do you see all the pretty shoes? Does it make a little more sense now?

Ha ha.. yeah I know


(Oh and I bought new shoes, yes I know its a problem)

Girls night out

Well I still drink with the best of them. Jess and I went out last night and had a blast!! We only went to this little pool hall that was a bit of a dive and we were the youngest people there but we made the best of it.
It was so much fun, we did a few shooters drank a couple of drinks. Made fun of the ladies dancing with visions of "thats us in 20 years" And we laughed! My goodness we laughed. It was such a nice night. We even shot some pool. The first game we did good and sort of looked like we new what we were doing, but the second game... yeah lets just say all the pretty balls just bounced all over the place....
My body was SORE this morning and it took me a little longer to get outta bed but it was worth it.
The last time I laughed like that I was on the phone with Salinna and I was laughing so hard I was crying and the hubby came to see if I was ok I was so giggly.
Pictures to come

Ok OMG!

So my friend Jessica got mugged the other night.
Well not really but yes really
She was sitting in her car listening to music and this guy comes to her door with a screwdriver and tells her hes going to stab her give him her money.
She tells him she does not have money.
He asks for her purse.
She tells him she does not have a purse (which is true)
He steals her cell phone and then tells her to give him her keys or hes going to cut her.
Then she loses it grabs the screwdriver and chases the guy through the parking lot screaming at the top of her chasing him with his own screwdriver. he got away in a van that was waiting for him
How scary.
Really scary shit.
Shes ok just a little rattled and P.I.S.S.E.D. but shes going to live.
So the cops can not really do anything but can you believe that??

If she ever sees that guy again I am worried about what she'll do to him

New job= no internet at work

So thats why the lack of posts.. Oh and last night I was sick. Really sick.

Not much to report really. I like my new job which is good. I am REALLY excited about my newer job which I start Dec 11th. So all is good in Random land.

Things are really starting to get cold. It was 90 last week and now we are down to 50-60 its a nice change you can smell the fall outside. I think that is one of my favorite smells.

GREYS ANATOMY is on tonight. I have been dreaming about shoes lately, I think it may be time for a new addition. Or 2...lol Its s problem I know. It could be worse really, this girl I work with just bought a new dog WITH A $200 Louis Vuitton (I had to google that) collar and $16oo bag to carry the dog in!!!

DO YOU KNOW WHAT I COULD DO WITH THAT MONEY??? lol...

WEEHOO whos a rock star??

I am!! So I got the job. The one I interviewed for 5 days after starting my current position.
I AM SO EXCITED!! Not to be leaving the department I am in, because everyone is cool, its just good to know I will be making more money as well as 3x the benefits.
Its so weird I am still at the same place just switching departments.
Oh and I am so sneaky that I explained the only way I would except the position was I had current prior obligations in May and I needed 2 weeks off. Guess what... NO PROBLEM so I can REALLY start to plan my trip home, oh and also plan the kidnapping of Salinna to come and visit!!
WEEHOO

The Answers to the questions

Ok if we are being honest I was a little disappointed in the RESPONSE to this.. I though y'all had a lot more questions for me. Ha ha not like you do not already know all the answers..


Thoughts from the Heart of Dixie asks:
What is the most embarrassing thing you've ever done?
Wow I only get to pick one? Ok 2 really embarrassing things I have done?
1. When I was on a trip with my girlfriends in Hawaii we got really drunk and thought it would be a GREAT idea to go skinny dipping in the ocean. While we ran across the beach screaming like hieanas ripping off our clothes and went splashing into the ocean N.A.K.E.D. as the day we were born (right in front of a major hotel you may have heard of them The Hitlon?) so anyways after our impromptu swim we all walk back up to the beach (which is pitched black) and we can hear people laughing.... ha ha lets just say we were not alone. And those people on the blanket celerbrating their wedding anniversary sure got more than they bargained for.

2. Another drunk incident. (there were MANY of these) a bunch of us went up to a ski hill for the weekend and went to this little tiny club called "Le Petite Caribou" The way the bar is set up there are bars to hang onto when you are dancing on the bar so you do not fall. (yeah I used to get on bars to dance) well I am shaking my shit and then...... I fell back and my flexibilty allowed me to clear of the bar with my legs, ass landing in the ice bin, ice flying EVERYWHERE and I crash to the floor I am so drunk but also so embarrased that in stead of standing up I crawl across the floor (EWW THROUGH THE BAR TAR) to the end of the bar where my girlfriends are anxiously awaiting through fits of laughter to see if I am ok. I was so drunk that I had the logic that it was time to leave. Well my girlfriend Harriette had also desided that she too had too much to drink so we try to leave (the bartender was POURING shots straight from the bottle into our mouths) and we go outside only to fall over and roll on the ground in the snow trying to get composure. And this all happened in front of the door man (much to his amusement) we finally got to out feet desided it was too cold out and went back into the bar (can you believe they let us back in, I guess we were the entertainment)
I got high fives the rest of the night.....

Rantings in Red asks:
I wanna know what you look like woman!
Pictures to come

How did you and the husband meet?
We met through mutual friends. His best friend Adam, was my best friends Salinna's best friend.
Make sense?

Why do you want to leave California?
Traffic, the people, the cost of housing, the cost of living, the fact that you have to plan EVERYTHING and you can not even just "run" to the grocery store because everything depends on the traffic.

Why did my link go?
I am not sure where it went but look (as she points to the side bar It's back!)

Salinna asks:
When are you going to come home and have babies!!!!!!
Don't hold your breath on that one.. But I will be home to visit soon!

Obasso asks:
Can you curl your tongue, or any of those other neat tongue tricks?
Well my tongue is pierced and if I try really hard I can touch it to my nose. Tongue tricks? You would have to ask the hubby...lol Just kidding

Patty asks:
Why do you blog?
Well for a lot of reasons, I first started to blog because I was getting married and moving to another country and I wanted a way for friends and family to be able to keep tabs on my and see whats going on. My first blog entry was May 24th, 2003. I used to be on live journal and I have thought of bringing some of the posts from there to here.
I have kept up blogging because I bitch a lot. And I moan. And people come here to read and I have made a few contacts and friends through all of this. Most of the reasons I love to read other peoples blogs is to learn about other peoples lives, because they must be "more fabulous" than my own.


Joie DeVivre asks:
Whats the actual number of shoes you own?
Hmmm lots.. I would be scared to put the number really a good guess about 40 (probably more)?
And of those, whats the number you regularly wear?
I have about 10-15 pairs that are in heavy rotation the "practical" shoes, the "work" shoes, the "not to sexy I can wear these to work shoes as long as I wear a suit" shoes, my sneakers, my flip flops. Currently I have 6 pairs of shoes in my car... Yeah I have problem and no problem admitting it.. Oh and I am excited I am back to work so I can expand it, much to the moans and groans of the hubby.
oooo, i cant be outing your shoe fetish here surely?
Have you seen how many pictures I have posted of my shoes?? Ha ha.. Everyone knows about it and I am not to proud to scream it on the roof tops!!

I so wish I had the balls

I am going to get them I know I will. Well today I went to the airport to pick up a friend and I swear I would have you all in stitches if you could have seen some of the outfits that I saw today.

1. Goochos with socks to the knees and slippers.

2. Banana clips. (yes you remember) IN. A. SIDE. PONYTAIL.

3. People in there Pj's, full on with slippers.

4. Children in snow suits.

Oh yes I will get the guts to take pictures of all this one time.. Maybe I will start a fashion police blog...lol.. thats a good idea

Photo Stamps~ So cool!!

While watching TV last night I found the coolest thing. There is this site called Photo Stamp that lets you create your own stamps!!
So all those people who take lots of pictures Alfreds Mom, Ragus Pug, these stamps are a great idea for Christmas cards.
Check it out.

This is the picture that I choose! ; )

Ask Random anything?

So there is this thing going around and I am jumping on the band wagon...

What do you want to know about Random?? You can ask me anything you want and if I see fit... lol just kidding I will answer all questions because I am a freak like that and most of it is here somewhere on this old blog and really what do I have to hide??

So ask away...

The Mountains

I took this yesterday morning at work. The picture does not do it justice they were WAY more beautiful than this.
I am teaching myself how to use my camera, lots of it is trial and error and has been fun so far.

In other news my settlement came in. Its not much but its better than deal with this injury crap any longer. I am done. No more lawyers no more insurance companies. A relief really. Not much of a resolve concidering that I will be disabled the rest of my life but because all the laws changed when Arnold became Gov the injured worker has no rights.
But thats life....

Its all being taken care of

So the dealership is taking care of everything. Only after the receipts were produced.
Oh and the husband is not going to notify the insurance.
WHAT? Thats what I said too, but hes very understanding and the manager told him that 80% of thier body shop work is referals from USAA. So the hubby does not think its fair to screw up ones business for one idiot that works for them. And the manager lead on that they may know who did it so the hubby is hoping it will be taken care of internally. I fought with him saying that it does not matter what they do now its the principal of the matter.
He would not budge. I even told him if he does not tell them I will.. he got mad. So the matter is dropped.
He did file the police report though so depending on how "well" hes taken care of he will have some back up.

The shit just keeps on coming

So the husbands car got hit last week. He was not in the car at the time someone just backed into him. So the insurance company of the guy who hit him told him were to take it and he did (both parties had the same insurance company USAA)
Anyways there are minor things to be fixed and the hubby stopped in today to check on the progress

HIS WHOLE CAR STEREO HAD BEEN STOLEN FROM HIS CAR!!!
(lets just say the hubby is passionate about his music and his stereo 2 amps and speakers are a little precious to him and cost lost of $$$$$$$ also the $500 for the professional installation )

WHAT THE FUCK!! The car is on a locked yard being fixed at a place that his OWN insurance sent him to be fixed!!
AND THE FUCKERS HAD THE NERVE TO ASK HIM (not even apologizing) IF HE HAD RECEIPTS FOR THE STUFF!!

So tomorrow he gets to go down there and have the police to come out to file a report, not only that he called our insurance to tell them what happened AND THEY HAD NO IDEA HOW TO HANDLE IT! The stupid lady on the phone said that he would have to pay his deductable to have it replaced!! AT THE PLACE HE WAS SENT TO BY THEM!! The manager told him he could set him up with his car stereo guy and there was no need to notify the insurance or police. YEAH RIGHT!! And to make matters worse his car has Low JACK so the only way anyone could have gotten into the car is with the keys and to remove everything they did it was a inside job. The car would have armed itself if it was left unlocked with all the doors closed after 5 minutes and would have activated the alarm (that does not go off) if the door was opened without the key.

Anyways we have the receipts so we will see what tomorrow holds when he goes back and has the police come out.

Wish him luck!!

Anyone want to get naked for me?

Serious, since I have gotten my camera I want to do black and white nudes so bad. Not to be a perv of anything I just love nudes when they are black and white. I think when a person is naked its beautiful. Well see maybe I will get bold and try some of myself, I want to try it to teach myself about lighting and angles and stuff.
One of the women I work with is pregnant and 3 days after knowing her I told her I want to take pictures of her right before she gives birth. A little forward yes but I told her I will do it for free and she can print what she wants as long as I can use it for my book I am putting together so in 3 more months I will finally be starting pictures with people.
I have bugged my hubby for a while to let me take pictures of him but so far he won't let me.
I am wearing him down though (as most wifes do) lol

My day at the dog park

I took my friend Tito out for like 2 1/2 hours today because it was so nice out.
It was a good day, just relaxing and shopping.

Raining cats and dogs

The way things happen sometimes amazes me. Really.
I had orientation the other day, and you would never guess who else was in my class with me?
Only the 2nd most important person in the City. Yeah some serious pull.
And we got along well, so well we went to get finger printed together.
So it looks like she too is looking for staff (imagine that).
Oh and in passing after talking to who I thought was just another regular employee she introduces me to her boss The Mayor.
Then I get the grand tour, while talked about my qualifications. She told me to call her anytime and she came by to see me yesterday too to talk so we will see how this all pans out.

Shit when it rains it pours.

Oh and only me, when I was sitting waiting for my interview one of the managers from my office comes up and sees me sitting there
"Hi Random, what are you doing on this floor?"
Me ........... ( I must have looked really guilty)
"OH NO, really you have only been here 6 days?"
Me............

Then the lady who is interviewing me comes out and tells him to get away from me (joking of coarse)

AND THEN after my interview I tell my manager that her manager caught me red handed interviewing for another position so I wanted to give her a heads up.

THEN

She gave me a guilt trip. She told me that people may think the wrong thing about me, interviewing after only being in my position for 6 days. I told her I needed to think about me and if she would offer me the same amount with 3 times the benefits (whats being offered) I would stay forever.
So she gives me her blessing then takes it away!

Oh well thats life. Things are good though I am not going to worry about it. Just sit back and relax

I love the new job

BUT ...

No serious its great but yesterday I get a call from the "same" building but for a different position.. that pays A LOT more money. See I like the people I work with and I told my manager about it and she said that it was worth interviewing for. She said that she did not want me to have any regrets although she would not be happy if I left (she was joking around about it pretending to cry) so shes cool about it. Its weird I have been there 5 days and already thinking of leaving, well not really the only reason I would leave would be a "big" promotion and seeing how the ties are not that deep yet I need to think about me and the opportunities this new position would provide.

So wish me luck on yet another job interview. It will feel really strange to take lunch and go upstairs in the same building to interview for a different position...lol

This shit only happens to me.

My new friends

He's so cute. His name is Tito. I know all you are thinking "But Random you do not have a dog, and your hubby will not let you have a dog till you buy a house" No this a friends dog and I am so excited. I had my first experience at a dog park today and it was so much fun.
About a week ago I put an add up on Craigslist to find friends in the area. I have been here for 3 years and have yet to make any real connections, I mean I met people but after a little while they were either too much drama, lived to far way you know how the story goes. So outta desperation I put up an add that I was looking for friends in the area and I got a few responses. See I was waiting to blog about this because you know as a kid where you thought if you said something about a good thing it would be bad. I know stupid but anyways I ended up meeting this girl who happens to live in the same complex that I live in and shes super cool, so far our 3 play dates have been good. The first time I met her (thats her knees and Titos bum), I straight out asked what was wrong with her.. lol Serious, she loves food like me and 2 times now we have been out for Indian food. But now that I am sure we will be friends I can blog about her. Everyone say hi Jessica!!
Oh and on that note today I had the pleasure of driving in her car with her today and she was a bit taken back that I had my camera to document the MESS that was her car. But its hers and I was going to post the picture for all your entertainment but somehow when I went to transfer it and review it I deleted it. Lets just say my hubby can never complain again about my car being a mess. Oh and I get to walk her dog when she has to work long hours so I get to be a pet nanny...lol
While we were at the park 300 bikers drove by with a police escort for a charity drive for the children's hospital. By the time I got my camera ready I only got the back of the pack. But it was pretty neat.
Its weird that as you get older that relationships you have change. I have been blessed with a great group of girlfriends back home in Canada and being away has made me closer to some of them and further away from some. I believe every relationship takes work and you can only do so much to make it work. I am so glad I have made the efforts to keep my friends close.
But here's to new friends and new beginnings. WEEHOO
**lets just hope shes does not end up crazy...lol Just kidding Jess***

I am going to be one of those little old ladies

You know the ones who are always in everyones business? The ones who always know whos sleeping with who, who's daughters/sons are filing for divorce.
Ha ha the hubby always tells me that. He says I am so noisy. For instance the accident last night? I watched until the cars were towed away. I kept checking to make sure everything was going ok.
Well tonight about 15 police cars come flying by and I run straight to the window to see whats going on. Oh and then the police helicopter comes flying over so that intrigues me more, I go out to the balcony with the BIL and we imagine what happened. There are so many police cars around that when the husband comes home he can not even get into units.
We watch in awe as the helicopter eluminates the area right across from our balcony with about 5 police officers running around searching for someone.
Ahh the drama... And I am right there with my nose against the window peering out.
Oh and I do the same thing when neighbors fight.. Oh yeah don't pretend you never have..lol

Well thats good to know..

I had to call 911 last night and its good to know that the fire response time for our area is 3 minutes. It may have even been faster than that but its good to know.

There is the place right by our house that there are accidents at ALL THE TIME! Well last night we heard the squeal of tires then the crunch of metal and ran to the balcony for a birds eye view (at this time my mind is racing about how fast the hubby and I could get there is someone is hurt, I SWEAR I heard someone yell before the crunch so I thought that a pedestrian had been hit). I of coarse grabbed the phone and called 911 by the time we made it outside the 2 guys were out of there cars walking around assessing the damage. I am such a worrier about this stuff and everyone was ok and walking around by the time the firetrucks got there. Also when the ambulance showed up with lights and sirens blairing the firetrucks waived them off so we know that no one was hurt.
They really need to do something about that area, what it is, is that traffic pulls out into a lane thats partially blocked and the street speed limit is 45 miles an hour. So needless to say if they miss judge the on coming traffic there is an accident.
I would say about 1 time a week there is an accident there.
And it makes my skin crawl. I am always so worried someone is going to be SERIOUSLY injured there. And since we have lived here I have seen one REALLY bad one. One so bad that the jaws of life were brought out.
I always pray under my breath when I see an accident. If its really bad I cry.
Or like last night I barf. Serious.

OK this was to funny not to try

Serious it works!! try it.

Ok hold up your right foot.... Ok got it... now do clockwise circles with it...

Ok keep doing clockwise circles and hold up your right arm, with a finger from your right hand make the number 6.....

Pay attention and keep doing it.. lol


HA HA... your foot changes directions....




Is that not freaky? It made me laugh so I kept doing it.... then I made the hubby do it...

Ok I get it, I am cheaply amused.

Happy Thursday before a long weekend.. WEEHOOO

OK so gald shes ok!!

We had a little scare there. Friggin blogger would not let me read comments for the last 2 days!! Bastards. Anyways I was worried sick about my friend Anne because it had been days since her last post and I could not get into the comments to see if anyone in had left a message.
Anyways shes ok and getting better and I am so thankful for that!!!
So now I need to think about get well packages.. tee hee.. I am such a geek
All y'all that read this should go wish her well. Oh and if you pray put her in your prayers please too. She's going to get past this stupid thing called Cancer and shes going to kick it right in the ass!
I love you Anne hope you are feeling better.

My First day back to work

It was so exciting starting a new job. I am not sure why I like it, maybe its just because I am such a social person. Lets just say things work ALOT slower than I am used too. I am AMAZED at the people I work with though, things are REALLY laid back everyone is fun to be around, so far I have not figured it out but they are a well knit team.
It was fun.

So the cousin left early today to go back to Canada, having her here makes me miss home more. Makes me miss my family and friends, but also a good reminder that people change.
I've changed.
Life changes.

Hollywood

So everyone who comes to California needs to see Hollywood. We were there for like 2 hours and I took over 60 pictures. We had a goodtime. We went to Hooters for lunch and me and my cousin were the only ones in there that had Hooters. Serious. Oh and they did this thing because it was Sunday football that they had something called "family seating" so when we got sat at our table about 5 minutes later they sat some random strangers with us.. It was strange but funny all the same. Of coarse we took a picture of the random strangers we had lunch with. Ha ha and in true "Random Musings" fashion I asked them a bunch of personal information about themselves. They both agreed that people are crazy out here..... We were going to go to Beverly Hills but my cousin was not up to it, I had explained that its about as highly overrated as Hollywood and Vegas really. So shes off tomorrow and I GO BACK TO WORK!! Weehoo so excited about my new job, a little nervous really but more excited.

There are more pics on my photo blog

Our day at the beach

My cousin has never been to a beach (a real one anyways) and has never seen the ocean so today we spent it out in Santa Monica. It was a little cool out (it is Nov after all) but it was so beautiful. I am not sure why but I always tend to get a little emotional when I see the ocean. Maybe its its vastness, maybe the realization that you are at the end of a country thats joined to many other countires.. Who knows thats the hopeless romantic in me I think.
We had the best lunch at the mall she had Mongolian grill for the first time and LOVED it, and I had idian food (which we all know I LOVED) we walked quite a few miles on the beach and saw some interesting things.
Before we headed home we made sure to stop at this cupcake store and they had THE BEST cupcakes, a little on the pricy side but so YUMMY this picture really does not do them justice.
Oh and a 3 hour drive home.
Only in California.
There are more pictures on my photo blog

The Vegas Pictures are up

Nothing too exciting. I am still learning the settings for my camera so some of the "better" pictures are too big to upload to Flickr.
See the set @ randomsphotoblog

Oh and sorry no bar pictures, I was too afraid to bring my camera out with us. Which is probably a good thing...

Just a little piece of Vegas

So I took this picture while sitting in the lobby of the hotel, what this picture does not show is that this guy is in a G-String. He was also walking around with a HUGE inflatable penis. So needless to say all the freaks were out in full force for Vegas Halloween.
There are a bunch more pictures but flickr will not let me load them. I will try again later.
I missed all you guys, give me a bit to get caught up.
And yes more Vegas stories to come, which include puking of coarse, getting cut off at the bar and barfing in cabs, holding random strangers heads out of the garbage and not puking myself.
Oh and shooters are no longer my friend

Vegas BABY HERE WE COME!!

So this will be my last post for 4 days.. What are you all going to do without me? lol
So we are off to Vegas, there will be much dancing on the bars, drinking and insane stories to speak of when I return. I will also catch up on my many blog friends.
Don't worry I will have a drink for all of you....lol

She's HERE

WEEHOO so excited. This lovely picture was taken at the mall, with no makeup on first thing in the morning.
I think its a cute picture.
Ok off to the wedding and then maybe I will squish in one more post before Vegas.

(Of coarse thats me in the LA hat and shes in the pink one)

More Shoes

OK I will be the first to admit I have a problem. Serious. These are the EXACT same shoes but in different colors. BECAUSE I LOVED THEM SO MUCH. These are the ones I got when I went to Vegas in August. Ha ha every vacation I take I buy new shoes, new job? New shoes? Got your car washed? New shoes.... When I cleaned out my car the when I had all that "extra" time on my hands I took 9 pairs of shoes outta my trunk.
You know what the hubby said

"So you think thats not an issue?"

He loves me shoes and all. And I have been known to give them a go around in the birthday suit just for approval. **snicker**

California never lets me down

So the weather looks good for my cousins visit and I am getting SOOO excited!!
And it true California fashion the mountains are on fire AGAIN. This happens every year at this time for some stupid reason this one unfortunately was arson and 5 fire fighters have died fighting this fire. This is the first time any firefighters have been lost in a few years and they are offering a reward to catch the dumb ass that started this. Its so sad all those families that have lost loved ones because some IDIOT thought it would be fun to start a fire. Not to mention we are having the Santa Ana winds right now which is making fighting the fires worse.
10,000 acres have burned and so far only 3 homes have been lost. So everyone keep your fingers crossed that the worst of it is over.