HAPPY CANADA DAY!!!

I thought I was home sick before, then I told people at work about Canada day and how crazy all us Canadians are for this day.. and well I am even more home sick. Just a little back story I used to live in Ottawa, which for all my American readers is the capital of Canada (equivalent to Washington DC) and in Ottawa WE DO CANADA DAY BIG!!! Its so much fun, random strangers walking the streets drunk off your asses meeting complete strangers and a 4 day party. They shut down the city for this. Serious. I am proud to be Canadian!!!
And today I will wear my CANADA roots shirt proudly and go to the Casino and when people ask as they always do when I wear that shirt. I will also wear my red undies and bra cause lets face it I am proud to the core.
"Are you really Canadian or did you just get that when you traveled"
"Hell YEAH I AM CANADIAN!"

I am going to hell for sure now

Hey Girl:

I am feeling that I may be in your bad books or
something. I didn't receive any reply to my last
couple of emails. I know you moved and I emailed and
asked for your knew info because I wanted to call you
but no response. You were always my anchor on fathers
day and called faithfully but I haven't heard from
you.

If I have done something wrong please let me know as I
will try to fix it if possible. If I am just geting
old and paranoid let me know that too. I miss you very
much and just want to now you are ok.

Hope to hear from you soon.

I love you dearly, the old grey guy

I cried after reading this (and shhh Jen you can not tell him about this) This is from my dad. And those who know me and my dad hes not really a "sensitive" guy, so for him to write me this email he must REALLY be hurt.
How do you make this better?????
shit I am and ASS and I would like to just say I did not do it on purpose. My dad is great and I love him to death (it took awhile to get here).
I am an ass .. as she hangs her head low

***REVISION***
So I did what I could and tried to call and then when he was not home I sent him a 3 page email about how sorry I am and what he means to me as my dad.
And then I cried again, we have never been a HUGE family about talking about how we feel but for 1 minute I thought about what it would feel like if he did not call on my birthday, And that feeling sucks!!

Heavenly Father, Help us remember that the jerk who cut us off in traffic last night is a single mother who worked nine hours that day and is rushing home to cook dinner, help with homework, do the laundry and spend a few precious moments with her children.

Help us to remember that the pierced, tattooed, disinterested young man who can't make change correctly is a worried 19-year-old college student, balancing his apprehension over final exams with his fear of not getting his student loans for next semester.

Remind us, Lord, that the scary looking bum, begging for money in the same spot every day (who really ought to get a job!) is a slave to addictions that we can only imagine in our worst nightmares.

Help us to remember that the old couple walking annoyingly slow through the store aisles and blocking our shopping progress are savoring this moment, knowing that, based on the biopsy report she got back last week, this will be the last year that they go shopping together.

Heavenly Father, remind us each day that, of all the gifts you give us, the greatest gift is love. It is not enough to share that love with those we hold dear. Open our hearts not to just those who are close to us, but to all humanity. Let us be slow to judge and quick to forgive, show patience, empathy and love.

I cried today

For no real apparent reason either. I was driving to work and one of my mom's favorite country songs came on the radio (why it was on a country station I have no idea I think I may have been flipping)
Anyways it go me to thinking about missing home.
I miss my mom.
I miss my sister.
I miss Sal.
I miss Jamie and David (my brothers)
I miss my babies (Sal's babies really but serious who notices that stuff..lol)
I miss Sara (if she would EVER email me back)
I miss the bars (I know how can you miss THAT but I do)
I miss OTTAWA so strange I know.
I miss rain.
I miss weather that is not 100 friggin degrees (35-40 for you Canadians)
***sigh***

As soon as I get my green card back I am coming so you all better be prepared

So this is how it is...

12 pounds in 3 weeks.. actually more 4 weeks.
I have issues people, I would be losing a lot more weight if I could bring myself to diet.
I would prefer to have my fingernails pulled off one by one then go on a diet, I would rather stand naked in public and have people point out my flaws, I would rather poop in front of the hubby than diet
Ok I have issues with diets. I always have. I just LOVE food too much, and I can not say no.
So to lose this weight (which would be more like 20 pounds if I could diet) I have been going to the gym almost 5 days a week. I have been stretching every day which is something that I really miss (used to be a gymnast) so its slow going.
I had a talk with one of my best girlfriends and we chatted about diets.
We had a good laugh, and when I say good laugh I mean we were laughing so hard that the hubby came in to check to see if I was OK.
See I have never really had body issues. I mean I always wish I could lose a few pounds but I have always been comfortable in my own skin. Well that was up to about 4 weeks ago when I thought "HOW THE HELL DID I GET TO THIS?"
I have a big ass. I always have but when I was talking to Sal we were laughing that I feel like if she saw me right now she would be like.
"What the HELL did you do? Did you swallow your husband??"
All jokes aside it’s a tough process. And I am learning as I go.
I have some of it to blame on the accident, because I had been limited to what I could do but now I have thrown caution to the wind and I am doing as much as I can without it hurting.
So 12 pounds down 120 more to go.. lol.. just kidding…
I have been perusing a few different blogs and when I get back the weight I was before the accident I will post more pictures. That and I am aiming for it to happen around my birthday and when the hubby buys me my new camera for my birthday then you are all in trouble!!
And if anyone has an success stories or advice.
Please let me know… trust me I need all the help I can get right now…lol...

Its a good week.. when

1. Your husband looked SO HOT when he left for work (the ties do it for me) for his "new" job
2.You are 12 pounds lighter this week than last week.
3. You realize you have passed your 90 day "probation" at work and can call in sick tomorrow if you feel like it
4. You feel better from puking your face off last night
5. You have sworn off Mc Donald's due to puking your face off last night.
6. You get told by the "hard asses/big bosses" that you are doing a good job (its almost unheard of here)
7. You get to go visit a customer tomorrow so that day is a write off because after your visit you the president and the sales guy go out for a swanky lunch.
8.You get emails from good friends that you miss dearly

WTF??

So I mentioned that we have moved. And the place we live in is really nice. It’s a great community, nice pool and gym overall a good safe place to live.

WHAT THE HELL!

This morning we have an "Official Notice" attached to our door.

What does it say?


"We have done a check of the Area and it appears that your patio is unsightly and a bit of an eyesore to the community of flow that we are looking to attain here at -------- apt complex name" (or something equally as bullshit as this and I am not even exaggerating)

Why you ask?

Because I have panty hose stung across the patio?

Are we ghetto styles and hanging our laundry out to dry and they are sick of looking at my negligees??

Are we letting the kids hang out in there panties all dirty and screaming, are we letting our dogs shit up all in the place?
( we have no kids or dogs and I WOULD NEVER OWN another pair of panty hose)

WHY are we so "Not uniformed"

BECAUSE WE HAVE 2 empty soda cans on the table on the PATIO?

WTF!!

Someone needs to get a life. I was almost tempted to go out and dump out the WHOLE garbage can of recycling.
I did not.
But serious people. They hire someone to "notice" these "flaws"
I mean who the hell is so INTERESTED in reporting that we have left 2 empty cans of soda on OUR patio, the place WE pay rent for?

Next thing you know they will be complaining about the amount of laundry we do or the length of OUR FRIGGIN SHOWERS.

Too funny if you ask me

SO EXCITED!!

I am so friggin excited!! I just booked our resort share for 5 nights for our wedding anniversary in August.
I know it does not sound like much but we are coming up on 3 years now and we have never really had a chance to celebrate and have a big anniversary.
The first year I had literally just started a new job and did not have the balls to ask for a day off.
The next year I was injured from the accident and we we so broke there was no way we could have done anything (we always went out for dinner but never really made any HUGE plans)
So THIS year we are going to VEGAS BABY. Really I have been wanting to see Zumanity by Circ de soliel FOREVER its supposed to be really good and VERY sexually charged and we are getting the good seats. And when I say good I mean we are purchasing the couches front stage center and are ordering champagne and everything.
I am such a girl I am climbing outta my skin about this.
Because we are going to be there for 5 days we are also going to go see Blue Man Group
In all the many times I have been to Vegas I have never seen a show, so I am pretty FRIGGIN excited!!!

SO EMBARRASSING

This may make me sound totally like a girl but lets face it I am.
So I am driving along after a hard day at work (I got stuck diffusing a customer situation 1/2 longer than I was supposed to stay)
And I hear "BING, BING"
OH NO.
My Check gauges light is on.
Then the thoughts starting running through my head, I am going to be "THAT" asshole who breaks down in bumper to bumper rush hour traffic, you know the guy you all flash dirty looks at while you drive by them and curse bad names under your breath (or out loud depending on how mad you are) cause they CAUSED all the traffic and are sitting halfway pulled over with there 4 ways on? ( I am also worrying that I do not look particularly sexy today and who's going to stop for a not so attractive forgot to put on mascara, hair all disheveled, sweaty 100 degree weather and I have now turned off the air conditioning and radio because some how I think this will preserve the gas)
Don't pretend you don't do it...
Anyways I look down and another "BING, BING"
SHIT ITS THE FUCKING GAS LIGHT!!
Ok this has never in my life happened to me. I am the kinda person that if it gets down to 1/4 tank I fill it immediately so I start to panic I call the hubby
"Babe your going to have to come get me I ran outta gas"
"What do you mean you ran outta gas? How did you do that?" (of coarse he's mad at me that I would be so silly as to run outta gas, and how am I supposed to get gas to you we don't have a gas tank"
"OH"
"Where are you?"
"Almost to Walmart"
"So your not outta gas?"
"No the lights on? Can I still make it to a gas station"
(half laughing under his breath all exasperated that I am so "car stupid")
"Yeah your fine, just stop at the closest gas station"
So I am shaking and nervous as hell that I am going to run outta glass at the intersection and I am panicing cause there is so much traffic and the friggin light keeps blinking and "BINGING" at me.
"Are you sure?"
"YES JUST STOP AT THE CLOSEST GAS STATION"

I made it. But I vow never let it get less than 1/4 tank again.
Oh and to keep an extra mascara/lip gloss/compact in the car in case of "breakdowns"

Ha ha

Sometimes life gets away from us. Little things get neglected, we get busy and forget to do some of the "little" things that if we had a better lit bathroom and maybe better eyesight as to not "miss" what's actually going on. Now before y'all think I am gross or anything I must say, as I have many times before that I have an aversion to body hair. On me. On anyone else it does not bother me but for me its "GOTS TO GO!" so you can imagine my surprise when I woke up this morning and happened to gaze in the mirror and see THIS!!!!
Sexy I know and I got it all fixed up but serious I was walking around like this, and I had the GAUL to complain about Britneys grooming habits (mind you she does have millions and does nothing all day so she has no excuse).
Apparently I need to spend some more time and attention on the eyebrows.
Mental note to self, call the lawn guy about the bushes more regularly

Life is funny sometimes.
Everyone gets what is coming to them.
In due time.
Patience and persistence.

WEEHOO baseball

The baseball game was awesome! And so much fun, at first it started out to be a good game 2-2 in the first inning, then we lost our shirts. 9-4.

Another reason I love the husband? When I mentioned I as chilly he went for drinks and brought me back the COOLEST Dodger sweatshirt hoody. So cute.
A little tired today but what can you do?

ha ha.. Not me but I did score some Dodger tickets for tonight. I am REALLY excited actually because they are doing so well this year. Hopefully it will be a good game. Not looking forward to the traffic to get there, but hey free tickets.
Oh and they are our Corporate season tickets so they are REALLY good tickets (field level). We usually give them away to our clients to kiss up but not tonight.. WEEHOO
And yes I will NOT be sitting in front of the TV watching the basketball game cause lets face it Miami is going to lose and then I can watch the NEXT game and watch Dallas win : )

The red cross makes me pee on myself

I can not believe I am about to confess this to you. But I have to. And it makes me laugh at myself so I need to tell you all.
So to set you up for this we are in Houston, day 5 after hurricane Katrina working in a shelter with 350,000.00 evacuees.
And I have to pee.
I may have let on a little that I am a bit of a germa phoebe. Well not really but for some things MOST DEFINITELY.
Ok so I have to pee and I go to the ladies room, I frantically search the stalls for some Toilet Covers (who am I fooling 350,000.00 people here for 5 days they have clearly run out of toilet covers) so I search for a stall with toilet paper even. NONE!
By this time I am doing the pee dance as I run from stall to stall looking for TP with my elbows no less (as if I could touch that), I look for hand towels NONE of those either (this place was gross and smelled like a men's locker room after the big game and someone shit on the floor for fun)
I dug into my pockets and because I am rarely without Kleenex (I know I am weird back off) I found some Kleenex, more clearly A as in one and not plural.
So what's a girl to do? Does she cover the seat with the 4 inch tissue?
Well when said female attempts to stretch the 4 inch tissue to its limits but unfolding it to make it bigger so I could put some on the toilet in case I had to touch it and leaving enough to be able to wipe and then actually get out of the stall without touching anything...

AHH SHIT! She drops it on the floor, as I look in despair at the now soiled gross tissue I have run out of options.

Squat and drip dry! (don't look at me like that you have ALL been there)
I assume the position and teetering cautiously I let her rip AHH sweet relief at last.
AND THEN
Yep I slip, lose balance and then suddenly I am no longer teetering on my tip toes strategically placed as to be certain not to touch anything and I am fighting with all hell not to touch the toliet or the walls...
And I pee on myself.

OK Laugh its funny. And because I have no shame I walking from the bathroom laughing out loud at myself. I walk up to Elena as she was the first person I ran into that I "sort of" knew.
And I confessed the whole story through tears of laughter.
Turns out she had done the same thing.

What made me think of this??

Well as I mentioned before I was going out to Big Bear Lake with the Red Cross to do a little community building about fires and earthquakes and we are in the middle of no where so guess what happened?
This time it was a PORTA POTY... Nuff said they are gross.

So I cautiously assume the teetering position and I have to go bad because I was trying to tell myself that in fact I could wait another 3 hours till I got home or even back to civilization.
And it happened... Again...
A car goes whizzing by and unexpectedly caught off guard thinking someone had just whipped open the door the the poty and all was exposed.
No just a car going by and me peeing on myself... Again...

FUCKING IMMIGRATION

Friggin hell.
So I get my paperwork back about my permanent resident.
I am officially a permanent resident of the United States Of America, no more paperwork no more shit (well for 10 years anyways)
Here's the clincher

THE FUCKERS SAY I CAN NOT LEAVE THE COUNTY FOR 6 MONTHS!!!(until I receive my "new" permanent resident card with no restrictions, and I say new cause I already have one but its expired)

I know, I know its only 6 months but it my little life its GOING TO BE FOREVER!!!

Poor Britney

Could she have looked more TRAILER?I mean all she needed was Sean on her hip and a cigarette.EWW did you see her nails?
"We're county y'all"
"We are people too" sniff sniff
ARGG she is so trash.
And come on your a mother DRESS LIKE ONE!

Happy FRIDAY!

Subject: You're a product of the 80's and 90's if...

YOU KNOW YOU GREW UP IN THE 80's or early 90's IF-

1. You've ever ended a sentence with the word "PSYCHE".
2. You watched the Pound Puppies.
3. You can sing the rap to the "Fresh Prince of Belair"
4. You wore biker shorts under your skirts and felt stylish.
5. You yearned to be a member of the Baby-sitters club and tried to start
a club of your own.
6. You owned those lil Strawberry Shortcake pals scented dolls.
7. You know that "WOAH " comes from Joey on Blossom.
8. Two words: M.C. Hammer
9. If you ever watched "Fraggle Rock".
10. You had plastic streamers on your handlebars.
11. You can sing the entire theme song to "DuckTales".
12. When it was actually worth getting up early on a Saturday to watch
cartoons.
13. You wore a ponytail on the side of your head.
14. You saw the original "Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles" on the big screen.
15. You got super-excited when it was Oregon Trail day in computer class at
school.
16. You made your mom buy one of those clips that would hold your shirt in
a knot,on the side.
17. You played the game "MASH " (Mansion,Apartment, Shelter,House)
18. You wore Jordache jean jacket and you were proud of it.
19. L.A. Gear....need I say more
20. You wanted to change your name to "JEM" in Kindergarten.
21. You remember reading "Tales of a fourth grade nothing" and all the
Ramona books. Ramona completed in 1st grade.
22. You know the profound meaning of "WAX ON, WAXOFF"
23. You wanted to be a Goonie.
24. You ever wore fluorescent clothing. (I knew this would come back to haunt me)
25. You can remember what Michael Jackson looked like before his nose fell
off...
26. You have ever pondered why Smurfette was the only female smurf.
27. You took Lunch Pails to school.
28. You remember the CRAZE, then the BANNING of slap bracelets.
29. You still get the urge tosay "NOT" after every sentence.
30. You remember Hypercolor t-shirts.
31. Barbie and the Rockers was your favorite band.
32. You thought Sheera and He-Man should hook up.
33. You thought your childhood friends would never leave because you
exchanged friendship bracelets.
34. You ever owned a pair of Jelly-Shoes.
35. After you saw Pee-Wee's Big Adventure you kept saying "I know you
are,but what am I?"
36. You remember "I've fallen and I can't get up"
37. You remember going to the skating rink before there were in-line
skates.
38. You ever got seriously injured on a Slip and Slide.
39. You have ever played with a Skip-It.
40. You had or attended a birthday party at McDonalds.
41. You've gone through this nodding your head in agreement.
42. You remember Popples.
43. "Don't worry, be happy"
44. You wore like, EIGHT pairs of socks over tights with high top Reeboks.
45. You wore socks scrunched down.
46. "Miss MARY MACK MACK MACK, all dressed in BLACK BLACK BLACK"
47. You remember boom boxes vs. cd players.
48. You remember watching both "Gremlins" movies.
49. You know what it meant to say "Care Bear Stare!!"
50. You remember watching Rainbow Bright and My Little Pony Tales"
51. You thought Doogie Howser was hot.
52. You remember Alf, the lil furry brown alien from Melmac.
53. You remember New Kids on the Block when they were cool.
54. You knew all the characters names and their life stories on "Saved By
the Bell ", the ORIGINAL class.
55. You know all the words to Bon Jovi - SHOT THRU THE HEART.
56. You just sang those words to yourself.(didn't you)
57. You remember watching Magic vs. Bird.
58. You cut your t-shirts in half and wore it with your homemade Levi
shorts..(the shorter the better)
59. You remember when mullets were cool!
60. You had a mullet!
61. You still sing "We are the World "
62. You "Pegged " your pants ritually.You're still singing shot through the
heart in your head arent you!!!
63. You french rolled your jeans.
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Earthquakes?

I have been dreaming about Earthquakes lately. And when I say lately I have been dreaming about them almost every night. So strange, even so bad so that at 3am the other night when both the hubby and I were not able to sleep I rolled over to him and told him.
"Baby we really need to discuss an evacuation plan in case of an earthquake"
And then even lack of sleep does not deter his sense of humor
"Hey babe I have a GREAT idea, why do we not evacuate through the front door"

I think the reason I this has been on my mind so much is this weekend I am volunteering with the American Red cross doing a presentation about earthquake and fire preparedness out at Big Bear Lake (they were ravished with fires in 2003) and I have been watching TOO much of the discovery channel.
But in all seriousness. California is due for a HUGE quake and its starting to scare me a bit. Not so much the earthquake but the lack of being prepared. Its not even a matter of IF it will happen but WHEN will it happen.
If it happened in the middle of the night? What if it happened at work? How would we contact each other if the lines were down? How would I know he was OK? Would I go to his work if it happened during the day? He works in a hospital so there is no way he would leave work EVER if this happened he would be busy helping out.
The shit that goes through my head!
Ok I am a worry wart...

This is what dream Dictionary says

Earthquakes

If you live in an area prone to earthquakes and are used to them, this dream indicates minor difficulties that need to be resolved. But if you live in a place where earthquakes are rare, this dream implies a sudden and totally unexpected change in your circumstances—which could require some difficult adjustments at first, but will, in the long run, end in success and good fortune.

Oh and did I mention we live on a MAJOR fault line?

WEEHOOO

The hubby got a new job. WEEHOO
And I am so proud of him. Really because this is really good. Its still at the same place but now he's a "BIG DOG"
And more money never hurts.
This will be a nice distraction while we wait for this OTHER thing to go through…. That’s our life hurry up and wait.
BUT WEEHOOO More money means more SHOES!! lol
I am so proud. So now things are looking up (not that they were ever looking down..)
But you get it

It all comes back to you..

So I bought a random stranger breakfast.

Guess who got unexpectedly taken out for a swanky lunch today?

Isn't that freaky?

I am a firm believer that it all comes back to you. ( I just did not expect it so soon : 0 )

Random acts of kindness

OK so funny thing happened today. And KB (from KB's World) can relate.
Why are people not nice anymore?? I have a secret I have been keeping. Not really a secret but just something I do time to time.
So here is the story.
I went to McDonalds this morning (bad for me I know some times I just crave their breakfast) anyways I am sitting in line in the drive through and order my food.
I get to the window to pay and I say
"You know this morning I would like to pay for the car behind me too" (this happened to me at Starbucks one time and it really made my day I in return bought for the car behind me and I always wonder what happened with that car did they buy for the car behind them? At random if I need a little perk I like to do this, strange I know but who wants to be normal….I digress. It felt SO good to have a Random Stranger pay for my drink and it really made my day)
Ok back to story.
So the guy at McDonalds.
"Do you know him?"
"No"
"Do you think he is cute?"
"I did not notice really I was just offering to pay for his breakfast"
"Oh? I do not think I can do that?"
He goes of to talk to his manager and comes back
"Why would you do this (looking at me like I was clearly crazy)"
"Just because, a random act of kindness"
"Do you want to know his total before you offer?"
"No that's fine just run my ATM"

So I drove away on top of the world. Although the guy at McDonalds thought I had a screw lose maybe it will leave an impression on his young stupid mind.

DJ PERV

So I found out one of my good friends has been really sick and in the hospital for almost 2 weeks. He almost died. His Liver failed. And he will probably be mad I am writing this but too bad Bryan its my blog. He's ok now and out of the hospital
So with that being said if you are in the area they are having a fund raiser for him.

Location: SIN
380 Elgin St, Ottawa, ON
When: Thursday, June 15, 9:00pm

I hope all of you who know him will be able to make it out.
And have a drink for me!!

Too cute

SO I am honking (as are about 5 cars behind me) the light is green and the friggin car would not move in front of me.
Then I felt like and ASS.
This is why. In the middle of a HUGE intersection and momma leading her ducklings across the street

His & Hers Diary's

HER DIARY

Tonight I thought he was acting weird. We had made plans to meet at a bar to have a drink. I was shopping with my friends all day long, so I thought he was upset at the fact that I was a bit late, but he made no comment. Conversation wasn't flowing so I suggested that we go somewhere quiet so we could talk. He agreed but kept quiet and absent. I asked him what was wrong; he said nothing. I asked him if it was my fault that he was upset. He said it had nothing to do with me and not to worry. On the way home when I told him that I loved him, he simply smiled and kept driving. I can't explain his behavior. I don't know why he didn't say I love you too... When we got home I felt as if I had lost him, as if he wanted nothing to do with me anymore. He just sat there and watched T.V. He seemed distant and absent. Finally, I decided to go to bed. About 10 minutes later he came to bed, and to my surprise he responded to my caress and we made love, but I still felt that he was distracted and his thoughts were somewhere else. He fell asleep - I cried. I don't know what to do. I'm almost sure that his thoughts are with someone else. My life is a disaster.

HIS DIARY

I shot the worst round of golf in my life today, but at least I got laid.

Who's a classy Bitch?

I am.
So the hubby comes to me while I am in the shower. Him and the BIL have been drinking on the patio and have run out of beer (have I mentioned I was NAKED in the shower) so I did my best to distract the hubby from asking me to go get more beer.
To no avail. The hubby RARELY asks for favors (and even more rarely drinks) so I chimed in "Sure"
I jump out **note the fogged up mirror here** threw on some clothes (the hubby's Army T-shirt capris with no undies and flip flops) because really who is going to be at the Albertson's that is in walking distance to the house at this hour.
I run in grab some beer and chips and stand in the line (only one open) there were a few people in front of me and guess who walks up behind me (only this shit happens to me)
THE ENTIRE RIVERSIDE FIRE DEPARTMENT!!!!
And then it happens... I catch a glimpse of myself in one of those little "impulse buys" car visor mirror things and HOLY SHIT did I really leave the house looking like this? **note to self, before leaving the house at any time during the day ESPECIALLY after a shower check for raccoon eyes.
Do not make eye contact, look down no one will notice, you will never see these men again


And then I hear it. The snickering or what I ASSUMED was snickering because in fact YES I forgot to put on a bra and yes I was buying only beer and chips looking like the trailer trash rolled in...
I am so ashamed as she hangs her head

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JENNIFER!!!

I got to talk to my mom today.
And my baby sister. Its her birthday. I miss home. They are going on the town dancing tonight and I so wish I could be there. She graduates June 29. When did I get so old?

So I have been searching flights.
They are UBER expensive right now almost $700 bucks to fly home.
I am waiting anyways till probably Sept Oct just before it gets REALLY cold, cause lets face it I do not like cold.
I posted all my pictures today at work. Feels a little more comfy with pics of everyone I love….

FUNNY

Ok this and this made me laugh so hard I cried
Much to the amusement of the hubby and BIL who think I am crazy and do not get out much. I tried to explain that this is the shit that happens to me too..
They do not get it.

CUTEST kids ever!!

So these little cuties belong to my bestest friend ever.
ARE THEY NOT FREAKING GORGEOUS?
Hailey is almost 6 (she'll be 6 July 18) and Brody is 2 (he'll be 3 in August)
Salinna (these are her babies) she's the one who introduced the hubby and I and Brody was actually due on our wedding day (August 23) but the little darlin came early THANK GOODNESS cause there was no way SAl could not have been at our wedding!!!
I miss these kids so friggin much! (Oh and there mom too) I am already working on the "care package" for Haileys birthday. I am SO looking forward to seeing these little ones this fall. I worry so much being away if they know who I am or if they remember me.

I have no friends

Well not American friends.
Serious I just had to give 5 references of American citizens for me. They would be required to testify to my reputation and or character. (Please do note tell them about that one night in (add city here)

I realize I have no American friends really.
All my friends are Canadian with the odd American thrown in there (Teresa, Taira, Angelique, and Anne) buts its said really….

I need friends
Serious.
It was never a big deal till now. I have the hubby and he's my bestest friend.
But I need some serious "girl friends"
Maybe I should start a want add
Crazy Chick Needs friends
Likes long walks on the beach….. lol

Friggin blogger was down all day yesturday

Its going to be a GREAT day

Only cause I got stuck behind a MANUER truck for 3 miles through winding roads with little flicks of SHIT jumping off at every bump.
IT was SO great in fact that when I got to work I COULD TASTE SHIT IN MY MOUTH
Well not that I have ever tasted shit but I can taste the smell of SHIT!
EEEWWW GEEEROOSS!!!
UGGG

Tagged by "Anne"

Over at supposedley this is good therapy

5 Things In my Fridge

1. Turkey and cheese lunchables
2. Light Cherry Limeaid
3. Cucumber eye patches (they are so great on your face when cooled)
4. 1 package m&m's and 2 baby ruths (left overs from the golf thing)
5. Family size tub of fresh cut seedless watermellon

5 Things in my car

1. 5 pairs of shoes (you just never know! Stop looking at me like that)
2. Umbrella (which is strange cause I live in Cali and it rains for 2 weeks out of a year here)
3. My MP3 player and card for the gym
4. A wedding dress (that I made into a halloween costume that I need to ship to my bestest freind so she can make a princess outfit for her little girl)
5. 1 carmex and a lip gloss

5 things in my Closet

1. Shoes (LOTS OF SHOES!)
2. My flowers from my wedding. (they were fake)
3. 3 bins full of scrapbooking stuff.
4. A rolling rack that hold more of my oddles of clothes (I am a clothes hoarder)
5. My luggage

5 Things in my purse

1. 6 MAC lip glasses, 1 lip plump from Sephora, 1 carmex and a cap lip thing with no lable
2. My wallet
3. 4 pens
4. $1.14 in lose change
5. Cherry Blossom antibactreail hand cream
6. A flashlight
7. Enough medication to make 40 people stonned out of there minds.
8. 2 tampons, 1 panty liner
9. 3 nail files
10. 4 clips/thinges for your hair
11. Glasses and contacts
12. Kleenex
13. Matches (no I do not smoke)
14. Cell phone
15. Sunglasses
16. Can opener
17. Work pass
18. Can of gum (Starbucks people, which is also weird seeing how I do not drink coffee)
19. 15 lose receipts (one for $56.95 for gas and a car wash)
20. Ticket stubs from Davinci Code
21. Oh and $50 worth of chips from the casino that I forgot to turn in...tee hee I guess I just have to go back..

Lets just say I need to work on the purse thing.....

The weirdest thing

I was debating on putting this all out there but it was an experience I wanted to share.
So yesterday I had a doctors appointment that the "lawyer" had set up for me. (of course she tells me on Wed and expects me to be ok with it) But that's another story.
So I am there and waiting then its time to see the Dr. He walks into the office with this little flimsy file folder and starts to ask.
"So what are you here for today?"
"Listen DUMB ASS you should know by now why I am here I have been seeing you for over a YEAR" (I certainly needed to bite my tongue not to say that but it was pretty close)
Then he makes me explain the accident, what happened where it hurts (which in my opinion is stupid and he's an ass because lets face it not too many people should have to explain everything they see the doctor what the problem is. I mean you ARE a spine surgeon what was your first clue dumb ass?)
Anyways to make a long story short
THEY LOST MY FILE!! Serious they whole thing. And its one big ass file.
So bascially I sat there only have to return home to FAX (yes you understand that right) I was asked to fax my medical evaluations (I am no dumb girl when it comes to this STUPID medical system and I keep VERY good records)
So I am asked to fax some of my records so we can move forward.
AAAGGG!!

Moving on.

So after my little freak out I am moved along to get meds. They have been supplying me with Vicodin for the last year.
If you have been following this thing you know about 4 months ago I stopped cold turkey. And you may wonder why I keep getting Vicodin even though I am not using it?
I may need it someday, maybe not for me but.... Ok lets move on
So I take my bottle of FREE EXTRA STRENGTH VICODIN and stuff it into my purse.

I then proceed to Wal-mart where I need to have another prescription filed (for my migraines) and while waiting for that I peruse the isles.

Then I hear a lady on her cell phone crying in a whisper.

I keep a clear distance and pretends to shop in the isle away from her. I can not see what she looks like I can only hear the worry in her voice.

She is on the phone trying to be quiet and whispering the her husband through sobs "But baby since you lost your job and the insurance lapsed they need $142 to give me a 2 week supply of the Vicodin, I am in so much pain I can barley move and I can not even go to the hospital because that will take away from work....."

I missed some of it but she is obviously in pain and very distraught.

So I walk over to her isle, she is a frail lady her right hand contorted in a way that I assumed she had maybe had a stoke or something she was leaning over her cart wincing in pain?

"I am so sorry and I did not mean to be eavesdropping on your conversation and I know you were trying to whisper but.. I just happen to have this bottle of Vicodin in my purse (I show her the label and the dose (EXTRA STRENGHT)

She stares at me in shock

"Oh my goodness, if you have it you probably need it more than I do"

"No not really they give it to me at the clinic and seeing how I refuse to take it anymore you are welcome to it"

I try to force her to take the whole bottle.
She refuses.
I offer 1/2
She breaks out in a HUGE sob and jumps into my arms with the biggest hug ever whispering in my ear "You have no IDEA what this means to me"
I again try to give her the whole bottle and again she refuses I empty 3/4 of it into her purse and put the rest away.

" I do not need to know, as I believe we have all been there at some time in our life"

she's sobbing in my arms.

I smile and wave and tell her I was glad to help.

I walk away and just as I reach the end of the isle I turn around as I had just made up my mind that I without cart could move quicker than her and I was going to just drop the bottle into her cart and run.

She was gone.

I could not find her any where. I walked up and down all the isles and even stood out front of the story to find her.

Where did she go?
What are the chances that at that moment I would "over hear" her in distress?
What are the chances that I have a FULL bottle of vicodin in my purse?
What are the chances that she was gone? Just disappeared?

I cried when I got home, I was so frustrated at the situation!!
HOW DO WE IN AMERICA THINK ITS OK FOR PEOPLE TO SUFFER!! TO NOT HAVE ENOUGH MONEY TO PAY SO YOU JUST NEED TO SUFFER?
HOW IS THIS OK??

UGG time to lose weight

SO the weight is not just going to fall off by itself. I IWISH!
So I think I need to bribe myself.
Some new shoes? Each LBS I get a new pair of shoes???
Clothes? ha ha if I lose a bunch of weight then of coarse I am going to need to go shopping to get new clothes to fit the new body..
I should really get busy with that. All the cute new summer clothes out there…
I was actually thinking that because I love to blog SO much that I could deprive myself of the blog and then if I went to the gym I would be aloud to blog…
AS IF.
I would die, cause I would need to be strict and not even allow myself to read any blogs if I was not allowed to blog and that would be like asking a crack addict to just sit and look at it..
Ha ha.